I am...

...hating this bell Internet, telephone and cable service. I cannot wrapped my mind around the cable service. To many channels and I cannot find all of the normal shows. More work! Great!

Milky

I managed...

...to complete an order today after everything else. How is that possible? But I did it and I am so glad that it is done.

Milky

What a nightmare...

...this move has been, it was worse then that! Every bone in my body hurts, my ears are ringing and I have glue on my finger which is burning my skin. I cannot get it off it sucks! The new place has issues that have not been fixed. I do not know where to start and the support is not available as always it is up to me and just me.

I need a nap! Or a solid sleep.

Milky

5am

Just finished moving. Now in the new house. My body is killing me. I cleaned the old house from top to bottom. I am going to try to sleep, which is on the floor. So sore.

Moving hell!

Going on 10 hours and we are on the second run. Everyone is so tired and can barely move. Upstairs is done, the movers are doing downstairs. It is crazy. I cannot believe this is such a mess. It does not matter how much I organized it was not good enough. I want to pull my hair out.

Milky

Worried

I am starting to panic about this move. Between the pets, the time, rain and him...I am worried. He is so hard on me and we do not get alone at all. He is going to cause me so much grief. I want to cry. I am freaking out. What do I do???

Milky

Ordersssss

My last big order is done and gone but I have one to be ready for Tuesday should be interesting. Hope I complete it.

Milky

Over the years....

...I should know better not to talk to him, as it only LEads to fighting and me not sleeping when I really need to. I hate this! So mean and cruel.

It will be an awful move.

Milky

1:56am ....

.....it is finally here. We move at 9am. We just came from the house. It was painted but still need a lot of work. My sister and I have been finishing up with the packing but we still have more. So crazy. So tired.

Milky

It is 4:26 am...

...I am of course not sleeping. I am so tired and I have had about two hours, maybe three hours of sleep in the last few days. This morning I had such a low that I nearly crushed. My body was shaking and I could barely understand what was happening. 2.9 was my read which is dangerously low. Not good. I guess I did not eat and took twice as much insulin? I barely know what I am doing when I am this tired.

My sister is here for four days, thank goodness. I was ready to lose myself. I needed the help. We had a few good laughs, the kind that make you pee a little, have a few tears and takes your breathe away. It is moments like this that I miss and enjoy. It is to bad that it is few and very far in between. I wish I could have more family time with my siblings and my closest friends.

I feel myself drafting more into my dark place but as I try to pull away, I find more reason to stay in the dark. Who would really notice if I were gone? How long would it take for someone to say something or to ask? I have not been a matter to anyone for such a long time not. And yet it seem like yesterday you told me you loved me. But that is dead and gone. Life is not much for love, now. Either am I.

Milky

Quote

I want to be your favourite Hello and your hardest Goodbye. By unknown?

1 day to go...

...I cannot believe or wait. Bell will be there to set up and Rogers of course suck! Rogers cannot service that area??? Makes no sense and to top it off they want to charge me another month for NO service? Wtf? They are thieves! It is insane how much people spend on Rogers and customer service is crap! I am going to lose it on them!

Milky

"I'll Be Missing You" (feat. 112, Faith Evans)

[Intro: Puff Daddy]

Every day I wake up
I hope I'm dreamin
I can't believe this shit
Can't believe you ain't here
Sometimes it's just hard for a nigga to wake up
It's hard to just keep goin
It's like I feel empty inside without you bein here
I would do anything man, to bring you back
I'd give all this shit, shit the whole knot
I saw your son today
He look just like you
You was the greatest
You'll always be the greatest
I miss you Big
Can't wait til that day, when I see your face again
I can't wait til that day, when I see your face again...

Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)

[Verse One: Puff Daddy]

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

[Chorus: Faith Evans]

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

[Puff] I miss you Big

[Verse Two: Puff Daddy]

It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death

[Chorus]

[Faith Evans] Somebody tell me why

[Interlude: Faith Evans]

On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face

[Outro: 112]

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big
[music fades out]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mM0-ZU8njdo

I miss...

...being able to talk to you when things are going awful but more when exciting things happen. I miss the shoulder that you would give me when you were listening to what I had to say. I miss the comfort that warmed my heart because of you. I still miss you, always and Forever.

Milky

The Pets, Funny and Lazy!

2 days left...

...I am getting nerves. I signed the papers and it is now real that we are finally moving. I still have some packing to finish which is insane to me because I have been packing for months. It is coming to an end so that is good. One end and a new start. What is in store for me now????

Milky

Crazy day

I had many orders to fill for this weekend. It kept me crazy busy. Now, I am in bed wanted nothing more then to sleep. I hope I do as it is going to be a very busy weekend.

Milky

Happy Halloween, w Bailys

Creeepy Halloweeen

Black & White

Happy Anniversary

Fade Into You -

Fade Into You Lyrics - (Nashville Cast Version) Sam Palladio and Clare Bowen

Fade Into You Lyrics - (Nashville Cast Version) Sam Palladio and Clare Bowen

If you were the ocean and I was the sun

If the day made me heavy and gravity won

If I was the red and you were the blue

I could just fade into you

If you were a window and I was the rain

I’d pour myself out and wash off the pain

I’d fall like a tear so your light could shine through

Then I’d just fade into you

In your heart in your head in your

arms in your bed under your skin

Til there’s no way to know where

you end and where I begin

If I was a shadow and you were a

street

The cobblestone midnight is where

we first meet

Til the lights flickered out, we

dance with the moon

Then I’d just fade into you

In your heart in your head in your

arms in your bed under your skin

Til there’s no way to know where

you end and where I begin

I wanna melt in I wanna soak through

I only wanna move when you move

I wanna breathe out when you

breathe in then I wanna fade into you

If I was just ashes and you were

the ground

And under your willow they laid me

down

There’ll be no trace that one was

once two

After I fade into you

(Ooooh….)

Then I’d just fade into you (4x)

The New House

The Before

The Front

The Front Yard

The "Park" Back Yard

The Back Of the House

The Family Room

The Living Room

The Front Entrance

The Dining Room

Basement Bedroom

Basement Loft

Basement Media Room and Bathroom

Second Basement Bedroom & Storage

The Kitchen

 The Bathroom & Mud Room

 Guest Bedroom

The Master Bedroom

The Master Closet

The Guest Bathroom