Profound Quotes

You may be deceived if you trust too much but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough - Frank Crane

Friday, 26 October 2012

Never go back Grace Potter


You runnin’ around in circles
But you won’t find no better than this
And after all your searchin’
You come back to the place that you missed

But I’m closin’ up for the season
I see you out there you’re freezin’
But I’m never lettin’ you back in again

Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more
Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more

Lookin’ at my heart beat
Like I’ve never seen it before
Too alive to ever sleep
And this street is keeping me warm
I’m pushin’ up on the ceiling
I’m beatin’ back all my demons
And I’m never lettin’ you back in again

Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more
Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more

I can’t take it no more, these
Scratches on my soul
I can’t, and I’ll never let you near my heart again

Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more
Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more

Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more
Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more

Oh no, oh no
I’ll never go back there no more
Oh no, oh no
I’ll never never never never go back no more

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CNfBqniTqJA

Thursday, 25 October 2012

3 days for real...

...that is when we move. I cannot believe it is finally time. I am glad this part is over but it moves onto the unpacking. Hating that!

Between the business, medical issues and all of this I just do not know how much more I can do. It is crazy to me that I managed to do it. I am so tired and yet I cannot sleep. Everything hurts. Perhaps at the new house I will sleep. My hope.

Milky

Wtf fun fact 549#

The person who is always on your mind is either the reason for your happiness or your pain!

Uh huh....I agree!

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

Raw Emotions

Right now my emotions are raw and cutting deep. I am in a place that I have no one to understand what I am feeling or what I struggle with daily. Some days are bad, very bad and then there is the worse then bad. 

I care about many people in my life and it gives me great pain to know that the mistakes they made will change their life forever. The illness they have to deal with is painful and awful. It is not going to go away and it changes everything about who they must be now. But the hardship that I am feeling is that they are so blind to it and think that it is not serious, therefore they will not treat it with the concern it deserves.

I am so worried for her and I do not know how to make her understand that it is life threatening. Others around her are blind and will cause more problems.

Milky

Love/Hate

There are things about cooking that I have always enjoyed. But when it came to baking that was another story. Even time I was put on desserts in college I would feel so sick because when it comes to making desserts you most always have to be spot on with the ingredients. When you are cooking you get to play around and have more freedom.

I had an order for a cake and everything I had planed for it was great in my head but it failed. So, at about 12am I started over. Made a new cake and it t urned out better but not perfect.

I am not sure why I feel things need to be perfect but I am always putting more pressure on myself whic is why I am back on the no sleep pattern. That is making me very sick. Hopefully I will sleep tonight.

Milky

Tuesday, 23 October 2012

accept

If only it was as easy as it reads. As much as we want or need to change our lives it is a thing to do without the right means. That saddens me greatly.

I know many people who wish to change what is written in their lives. I am one of them. No matter how hard I try to get a head in life, work or even with my own mind set, it seems that is there is always something or someone getting in the way.

It breaks me down each time a door is closed or if someone does not understand what is going through my mind.

I am broken but I do feel as deeply as many others, do. It may surprise many but I hurt all the time. It is very rare for me to feel peace, in fact peace for me has only happened twice and both times I lost what was very important to me.

And I will never be able to fix that or even change it. My heart aches everyday and the loneliness is drowning me. My days and nights consume my mind with awful thoughts and hurtful memories. I wish I had never known such peace or love because all of that is now darkness and lost hope. 

Milky

Monday, 22 October 2012

Really crappy!

This being our last week here is going to be super rough. I have a bunch of orders all done by the weekend, the rest of the packing, two doctor appointments, treatments and I have the flu. One more not sleeping.

Of course everything has to hit me all at once. I guess I should know better but it will be nice if everything could run smoothe for me. Crossing fingers and toes.

Milky

Have a house!

I cannot believe it but it seems to be real. We went to the house and the guy is there painting. All the rooms need it but dining room and family. The space is there. The people who live next door have to wild dogs, so Phoenix will fit right in. Thank goodness. The back yard is the size of a park! No! Really a park, it is crazy.

The bad news is it may only be for a year and it is well water???!!! Still unsure about that. Movers are coming Monday for about eight hours. Then it will be unpacking nightmare. Oh, happy joy. Not really looking forward to that but I looking forward for all this to be done finally. 

Milky

Sunday, 21 October 2012

???

Who is reading me right, now? Why are you up so early on a Sunday morning?

Milky

Orders

I have a whole bunch of big orders this week. I get really excited but even more nervous before hand. I am always second guessing myself and worrying that my work is not good enough. I have not had any complaints but I still worry. I have everything in my head worked and it looks great but now it is time to bring it to life. We will see.

Milky

My postings?

Out of no where I had 386 readers yesterday? How did that happen? I am so confused and really wished I could know everyone who is reading. If you like email me. Tell me about you, or what you think? Or you could tell me if I know you? Lost friend, lost family?

Milky

No answer....

Still have not heard from this last house. Have no idea what is going to happen. I have been so sick for the last days. Vomiting, not sleeping and my head is going to explode soon. It is 6am and I have been laying with so many things on my mind. I have patches of hives because I am so nervous. 

I have no idea what is going to happen. I have seen over 100 houses and we have declined about 6 times or we were to late. I am so tired of this. I did not want to move at this time and had hoped that we would have been gone by now!

Milky

Friday, 19 October 2012

Blue Foundation - Eyes on Fire

"Eyes On Fire"

I'll seek you out
Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared
Of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

I'm taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze
And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Ahh, felling any foe with my gaze
Ahh, steadily emerging with grace
Ahh, felling any foe with my gaze
Ahh, steadily emerging with grace

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afx-XRsTDUU

Breathe Me - Effy and Freddie

"Breathe Me"

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DMUGKpovPyw&feature=related

Mike Oldfield - Tubular Bells Pt.1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Grx_thxFT4

Human body did you knows


  • Did you know 11% of people are left handed
  • Did you know unless food is mixed with saliva you can't taste it
  • Did you know the average person falls asleep in 7 minutes
  • Did you know 8% of people have an extra rib
  • Did you know the smallest bones in the human body are found in your ear
  • Did you know stewardesses is the longest word that is typed with only the left hand
  • Did you know that you burn more calories eating celery than it contains (the more you eat the thinner you become)
  • Did you know all the blinking in one day equates to having your eyes closed for 30 minutes
  • Did you know your foot has 26 bones in it
  • Did you know the average human brain contains around 78% water
  • Did you know your brain uses between 20 - 25% of the oxygen your breathe
  • Did you know a 1/4 of your bones are in your feet
  • Did you know your tongue is the fastest healing part of your body
  • Did you know a 1 minute kiss burns 26 calories
  • Did you know you burn more calories sleeping than watching TV
  • Did you know an average person will spend 25 years asleep
  • Did you know the most common mental illnesses are anxiety and depression
  • Did you know your skin is the largest organ making up the human body
  • Did you know enamel is the hardest substance in your body
  • Did you know the hyoid bone in your throat is the only bone in your body not attached to any other
  • Did you know your most sensitive finger is your index finger (closest to your thumb)
  • Did you know the human body of a 70 kg person contains 0.2mg of gold
  • Did you know women blink twice as much as men
  • Did you know Scotland has the most redheads
  • Did you know household dust is made of dead skin cells
  • Did you know the word 'testify' derived from a time when men were required to swear on their testicles
  • Did you know you take over 23,000 breaths everyday
  • Did you know your foot and your forearm are the same length
  • Did you know you burn more calories sleeping than watching television
  • Did you know 56% of typing is completed by your left hand
  • Did you know human thigh bones are stronger than concrete
  • Did you know more people are allergic to cows milk than any other food
  • Did you know your mouth produces 1 litre of saliva a day
  • Did you know your head contains 22 bones
  • Did you know the coloured part of your eye is called the iris
  • Did you know you breathe 23,000 times a day
  • Did you know if your DNA was stretched out it would reach to the moon 6,000 times
  • Did you know everyone has a unique tongue print
  • Did you know you begin to feel thirsty when your body losses 1% of water
  • Did you know hiccups usually lasts for 5 minutes
  • Did you know not all your taste buds are on our tongue (10% are on the insides of you cheeks)
  • Did you know your most active muscles are in your eye
  • Did you know your liver has over 500 functions
  • Did you know your brain uses 25% of all the oxygen your breathe
  • Did you know horses have 18 more bones than humans
  • Did you know blonde beards grow faster than darker beards
  • Did you know when recognising a persons face you use the right side of your brain
  • Did you know the human body contains 96,000km(59,650miles) of blood vessels
  • Did you know the hydrochloric acid found in your stomach is strong enough to dissolve a nail
  • Did you know on average you blink 25,000 a day
  • Did you know men have 10% more red blood cells than women
  • Did you know you have fewer muscles than a caterpillar
  • Did you know when your face blushes so does your stomach lining
  • Did you know 1 square inch of human skin contains 625 sweat glands
  • Did you know your normal body temperature is 37°C (99°F)
  • Did you know red blood cells are produced in bone marrow
  • Did you know you shed a complete layer of skin every 4 weeks
  • Did you know a Sphygmomanometer measures blood pressure
  • Did you know oxygen, carbon, hydrogen and nitrogen make up 90% of the human body
  • Did you know the fingerprints of koala bear are indistinguishable to that of a human

Dolma


Vegetarian Dolma Recipe

Adapted from: Dedemed’s Cooking
Yields: 16 dolmas
Ingredients
  • 16-20 grape leaves (we used the ones from pickled jar) [We got our grape leaves from Whole Foods.
  • 1/2 cup long grain uncooked rice (soaked in water for 1 hour)
  • 3-4 leaves fresh mint
  • 1/4 cup chopped onion
  • 1/2 cup chopped parsley (packed)
  • 1/2 tsp red chilli powder
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 1/2 cup lemon juice
  • 1/4 cup olive oil
Method:
  • Drain the water completely from the soaked rice.
  • Now to this rice add chopped parsley, salt, onion, chopped mint, chilli powder, ¼ cup lemon juice and mix well.
  • Separate the grape leaves individually from the jar. This part took the longest time as we had to separate the leaves, making sure not to break them.

Wait!

We have to wait another day? This has been the worse search I have had to ever go through. Sign papers, get truck be out! It cannot happen soon enough.

Milky

still waiting....

....to find out the out come of the "sure thing". I hate the waiting game, it is enough to drive another insane.

Milky

Not sleeping, again

I guess it should come to no surprise that I am not sleeping. It is 7:49 am and I have yet to sleep. I am over thinking the move, the finally packing, the repairs and this new house. although I do not know why I am thinking where to put furniture when we do not even know if we will get this place.

I have always been like this. Excite or really nerves nights before a exam, an appointment with doctors, special events, business orders and, well anything really. It is crazy but as much as I hate it, I just do not know how to control it. My mind over thinks every single detail, small or large, important or not.

I made a list of each room, I have the placement of everything in it's rightful place. Blueprints! THAT is the best way for me to explain it. My mind is filled with thousands of blueprints. I am able to see every detail so clearly and I put the plans in motion.

Awwwwgh, I am so bloody tired, so much so that I have pain in my bones. My body tells me to rest and sleep but my head, my screwed up mind is telling me this is all of the things you have to get done. Change this, remember that - do not forget you have to deal with other things, too.

SHUT UP, ALREADY!

Milky

Thursday, 18 October 2012

cannot be unseen

Truth about my life!

Long ago...

...I always thought that my family and I would have a lifetime of joy, love and time. Time to have fun, be happy and enjoy life. To enjoy what we loved to do and of course, more important enjoy family time, days - more family.

Now, I have no family. Just a broken heart, forever drowning soul and I am so mad! I hurt so much but I hate even more! I know that it is bad to feel this way but as hard as I try to get pass all of the hurt, I cannot!

I remember everything, every sight, sound, smell and it kills me inside. Whatever was good in me back then - is truly gone now. I am always going to be alone without love and without hope. Each day that passes I know it is true. Learning to live with this is my greatest pain and death could not come to me faster.

Milky

A few new treat...

...to test out in my "lab" kitchen lab that is.  Mad scientist at work this coming week. More things to keep me busy. I need to not be thinking about all of the drama, move, hearings and medical issues. I am so tired. Physically and emotionally tired.

Somedays, I feel like my day will never end and it kills me inside. This punishment is rough but I continue each day, each damn dark day. Is it not time that I have some peace? I am at no means a perfect person. I have done my share of dumb, stupid and hurtful things but to be honest so have the majority of people that have crossed my path in my lifetime.

Something has to give, even just a little bit. Right? This is another sleepless night as I will be stressing over orders, hearings and moving. I do not know if I will get through this.

I realized something awful. If I should die in the morning, it would be about 24hrs or perhaps a bit more before I would be noticed. This is what my life is, now and always.

Milky

Notice of hearing?

The hearing is set for October 31st 2012! I cannot believe they got it that fast but they clearly requested it over a month ago. Found a place - wait another if many. Hopefully we will be approve but so for it has been been hell.

The place is old, has charm in some area and not so much in others. At this point I would live in a shack. The whole house needs to be painted and a few other fixing are needed. I think I will be able to work with it.

The boy have lots of yard space and there is enough living space, finally. No one stepping over the other. But it does scare me being there alone. Thank goodness for Phoenix - Attack! Lol.

I hope this will finally be done. If so, the move is the last Monday of the month. I have 10 orders to complete before that day. Oh boy it is going to be super tight!

Milky

Cruel Joke


It is insane to me that they would take me to see a house that is 100% out of our budget!!! WTF??? What was the point of this? This house is a dream, an out of reach dream. What the hell are they thinking? I am going to ..... OMG! I do not even know what to say right, now. I am so bloody mad and confused. I just - I do not know! Just look at this place.
Milky






















Wednesday, 17 October 2012

Keeping myself...

...busy as much as possible. Working on Websites, Facebook Business Promotions, Blog for the business and new orders. The more my mind is on other things it allows me to be free from those moments of darkness. 

I am trying to hold myself together because there are moments that I feel as though I am drowning.

Milky

Duffy - Stay With Me Baby

"Stay With Me Baby"
(originally by Lorraine Ellison)

Where did you go, when things went wrong, baby
Who did u run to; find a shoulder to lay your head upon
Ooh wasn't I there, didn't I take good care of you
Oh no can't believe, your leaving me

Stay, Stay With Me Baby,
Stay With Me Baby,
Please Stay With Me Babe,
I can't go on

Where did you go, in search of tenderness?
Didn't I give you everything in return for a memory?
Ooh wasn't I there, baby I, maybe I was too good for you
Oh no can't believe, your leaving me

Stay, Stay With Me Baby,
Stay With Me Baby,
Please Stay With Me Babe,
I can't go on

Oh remember, you said you'd never leave me
Oh remember, you said you would always need me
Remember, Remember
I'm asking you, begging you, begging you

Ooh Stay with Me Babe,
Please Stay With Me Baby,
Oh please stay with me babe
I just can't go on
No stay, stay
I'll stay, stay, so don't go
Stay with me babe
You know I Can't go on, can't go on
Can't so, can't so stay please, stay

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TOaUxgkLSg   I love this one, more
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rf9PpN2NIaw&feature=related

Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Cyndi Lauper - Time After Time

Lyin' in my bed I hear the clock tick
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after
Sometimes you picture me

I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me I can't hear
What you've said
Then you say go slowI fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
After my picture fades and darkness

Has turned to gray
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
You said go slow

I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time

Read more: CYNDI LAUPER - TIME AFTER TIME LYRICS

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PqhOrgk11A&feature=related

seven years to put it all together

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Grx_thxFT4

Quotes


Once more into the fray.
Into the last good fight I'll ever know.
Live and die on this day.
Live and die on this day.

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"The old idea of the vitality of the universe was evolved long before history begins, and elaborated into a vast religion before we get a glimpse of it. When history does begin, we see evidence of one underlying religious idea : the conception of the vitality of the cosmos, the myriad vitalities in wild confusion, which still is held in some sort of array : and man, amid all the glowing welter, adventuring, struggling, striving for one thing, life, vitality, more vitality : to get into himself more and more of the gleaming vitality of the cosmos. That is the treasure. The active religious idea was that man, by vivid attention and subtlety and exerting all his strength, could draw more life into himself, more life, more and more glistening vitality, till he became shining like the morning, blazing like a god.

– D.H. Lawrence, Etruscan Places

Christina Grimmie - Titanium

You shout it out
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up

Chorus:

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

Cut me down,
But it's you who has further to fall
Ghost town, haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud, not saying much

Chorus:

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard, those bulletproof guns

Chorus:

You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

Uuuu
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OA4fdiOqNMw

Nothing

We still have no where to live and things are becoming more volatile by the day. I try to keep myself business with the business but even that is not helping me. The hole in my chest grows bigger and I am falling out of control. I do not know who to talk to or even what to say, anymore. 

I wake up each morning no that if something happened I would have no where to go. I will be left with nothing. I am struggle now but it will be much worse. I had no idea that things could get worse after everything I had gone through growing up. One bad place to the next.

My life has no purpose and I have nothing good to show or that defines me. I am nothing.

Milky

October - Anit-Bullying Month

Bullying has been around forever and it is thriving every 7 minutes. Bullying happens in school we all know this but what is or seems to be forgotten is that there is also bullying outside of the school.

Bullying happens at home, too. It is not just between strangers, classmates or friends. Look closer to home in some cases. 

Some parents bullying there own children, as well as each other. Husband and wives bully each with words and with touch. Siblings bullying each other, too. For the most part the bullying is not as bad but what we all do not realize - is that sometimes it is worse.

In one of my earlier post I admit to the bullying that happen to me in school. At the time I really thought what could be worse? Now I know. Growing up with violence both physical and emotional is bullying. Now I am caught up with the verbal and emotional bullying that I have no control over.

I keep quite and try to stay out of the way but the control and not having the right to say a word is so overwhelming. I cry every night and wish that it will end soon but when I wake in the morning all I do is wonder, why?

What happened to treating people fairly and with respect? No one is speaking up for those who are not treated well. There is no respect amongst us or any consideration for each other. Outsiders are treated better while we struggle each day. There is no regard for anyone's health physically or emotionally. They do not realize what they do and say have a huge impact and causes more damage. How do you make them understand that what they are doing to pushing you over the edge? 

I wish I had the answers and feel awful that this life of bullying continues for so many people everyday. Including me.

Milky


Stand up to bullying;
http://www.redcross.ca/article.asp?id=24700&tid=108

I am lost

I have no idea what is happening. My whole world is falling apart, even through thing did not seem to be able to go more down hill. Rock bottom? I really thought I was at that point but it turns out that Rock Bottom is just the beginning. I am falling further and below Rock Bottom.

Milky

Sunday, 14 October 2012

Sleepless nights

I thought the days go by slow. As if that was not enough! My nights are getting longer too. Tossing and turning. My mind always goes on auto power and the manual to turn it off is broken.

One thought leads to a list of thoughts. How am I able to check off each item until the list of stress is done. ???? That is an on going question. I keep telling myself to breathe but the walls are closing in on me faster. I feel weaker then I should be.

It is amazing (in a very bad way) how ones body is effected by stress. It eats away at me and I am not just feeling the emotionally pain from it, I am also feeling the physical pain. The aches, heartaches and body aches.

No one can relate or understand what I am going though, I mean how can they when I do not understand it myself.

I wish for peace in my life but asking for it is impossible. Unbearable! I hate this, me, like this!

Milky

Saturday, 13 October 2012

Sad piano (this will make you cry)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_Am4cHMBKM&feature=related

Unreal Times

Now and again you meet someone who has a huge affect in your life. They want nothing more to be there for you to help and support you in ways that others who may be close to you cannot.

Sometimes, there are people who want to fit you or the issues at hand. You may push them away but they still come around trying to help. I am good at pushing people away and for the most part I wish I did not but I can never help myself.

I guess part of the many reasons is because I am afraid to trust people. Or perhaps my many flaws scare me if they got to know me to well. Whatever the reason, it really does sucks.

I still, after nine months have not heal or gotten over things. I am still not well and very broken. Each day goes by and nothing is healing. I have so many questions but no answers, that is what hurts the most.

After all this time I still have one message that I save each month and it haunts me but I listen to it and for two minutes, I can breathe again. You would think that I could stop thinking of you but it is still to much to bare. My thoughts run to unreal times and I have to force myself to breathe because without you the madness is overwhelming.

The reminder is causing this hole inside me to grow bigger and it feels like there will never be an end to the darkness that engulfs me. My hope of one day knowing what has happened will bring some piece to me but I do not see that day.

I hope your soul and heart is free and you are at peace. I miss you, always.

Milky

Friday, 12 October 2012

Blog Reader's

Dear Reader's,

I am not sure who is or is not reading my blogs. The site gives me a report to how many people are reading them, each one of them. It is nice that you are because it helps me to believe that just may be someone out there understands me or perhaps what I am going through.

I am not perhaps and I have made many mistakes that I wish I could take back. I am sure many of you feel the same. There are times that I feel like I am drowning or the walls are closing in on me to fast for comfort.

I have mixed feelings of sadness, hate, pain and many other things inside of me. I feel as through I have no heart because it is broken and no soul because it has died. My hope is missing and I have no idea where to find new hope.

I like hearing your thoughts and thank those who have e-mailed. I am always opened to reading more.

Thank you,
Kind Regards
Milky

14 customs - fun facts

Think you've got North American customs mastered? When travelling, it's important to brush up on the customs and etiquette of the global village. What we consider polite and sensible behaviour at home isn't always perceived in the same fashion outside our borders. Don't be labelled rude, or disrespectful on your travels - discover these unique worldwide customs and make friends wherever you happen to roam.

Be careful when presenting flowers to a friend or business associate in Russia. Yellow blooms signify deceit or a relationship break-up. And skip red carnations, too. Traditionally, red carnations are placed on the graves of the dead, or are offered to surviving war veterans.

Clocks, handkerchiefs, straw sandals and flowers are all associated with death and funerals in China. Deemed inappropriate and morbid, you'll risk damaging the relationship if you present these gifts ' for any occasion - to someone in China.

When tucking into a meal in Egypt, by-pass the saltshaker. It's insulting to your host to sprinkle salt on your food. If you have to season your plate, it means that you find the meal's taste repulsive.

Who needs a watch? Here's one place where being early or on time is viewed as being rude. In Venezuela if you are invited over to someone's home for a meal, it's recommended that you arrive 10 to 15 later than the requested time. Early or on time guests are viewed as being too eager, even greedy.

In Norway, table manners are extremely important. Most meals ' including sandwiches ' are eaten using utensils.

Gift giving should be a happy, positive experience. When selecting a present for someone in the Netherlands, don't purchase fancy kitchen knives or scissors. Giving sharp, pointy objects as gifts is considered unlucky.

Children in Greece don't expect the Tooth Fairy to cough up money in exchange for a lost tooth. Instead, Greek kids toss their discarded baby teeth onto the roof of their home. This custom is meant to bring good luck and a healthy replacement tooth.

Clinking glasses and swigging beer is a scene played out of many pubs around the world, but don't expect to see such merriment in Hungary. This old custom dates back to the 1849 war with Austria. After defeating Hungarian forces and savagely killing thirteen of their military's leaders, Austrian generals were celebrating by smugly clinking glasses and drinking beer. While consuming beer was never forbidden, Hungarians did pledge to refrain from clinking glasses for a period of 150 years. Today, this custom is still followed in certain circles despite the expiry of the 150-year vow.

In Bolivia, it's rude to discuss business during a social occasion such as a wedding, or dinner party. The dining experience is meant to enrich personal relationships, not make deals. If you're attending a business lunch or dinner, wait until your host brings up the subject of work before diving into the topic. Your Bolivian counterpart will want to chat about family before tackling business issues.

When doing business in Turkey, it's the custom for your host to pay for your meal. Requests to split the bill will be viewed as a polite gesture, but won't be accepted. If you would like to pay your fair share, Turks recommend inviting your host to a follow-up meal. At that time, you can reciprocate and extend the same courtesies that were offered to you.

Japan is a very polite nation, and their fondness for etiquette extends to the mealtime use of chopsticks. According to Japanese custom, it's considered ill mannered to point, play with, or stab food with chopsticks. If you're in the middle of eating, use the opposite end of your chopsticks to secure food from a shared plate. Using the end that touches your mouth is extremely offensive, not to mention unhygienic.

Writing a lot of cards or notes while visiting South Korea? Be mindful of your pen's ink colour. Scrawling a person's name in red ink traditionally signifies that the person is deceased ' an important point to remember when giving a birthday card.

Don't be perplexed. Say, yes! In Finland, saunas are a preferred way to relax and socialize with family and friends. Don't be surprised if your business meeting is followed up with an invite to let off some steam in a local sauna. If you receive such a request, rest assured that your business meeting went well.


I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace


Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Only when I stop to think about you,
I know
Only when you stop to think about me,
do you know?

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me?

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpwCJzPlz8k

Why?

I am not sure what it is but the women in my family have always had the worse luck. I am no different. A curse. Everything and anything in our lives goes bad, turns on us or causing so much pain. 

I know I sound insane but it is real and not in my head. The men have not gone through anything that is noticed but the women have.

The daughter of hell himself. This has always been over my head and my "mother" has finally told the truth about her part in my life. Her role is 100% dead to me. She no longer can say anything to me that will hurt me or make me cry.

Milky

If I Didn't Know Better

If I didn't know better I'd hang my hat right there
If I didn't know better I'd follow you up the stairs

Stop saying those sweet things you know I like to hear
The horns are blowing louder and they're destroying me

Why do I keep drinking
Wasting my time on you
If I didn't know better
Well damnit
I do

There's a hole in what you're saying
I can plainly see
You have a lover that's waiting but baby you're right
here with me

Ooh, you might as well be the devil
Oh, keeping me out past three
Oh, you're the one with that apple so baby you can't
blame me

Why don't you keep drinking
Get me one night with you
If I didn't know better
Well damnit
I do
You know that I do

Oh, baby you're right here with me
Oh, baby you know
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gAI_1FsJ8rE

carnival cupcakes



F-this!

The agent has a house for me to see tomorrow but I really do not see the point. I am so sick of this.????

\Milky

Declined Offer

Once again another declined offer. This time it was so close but they are selling the house instead! I do not get it. I want so much to get out of this house and at this point we may be living on the streets! Perhaps a storage unit - oh wait - we could be declined on that too.

Milky

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

Knots

I am full of knots inside. I have had an insane headache for days.  There is not much left to pack, now. Little odds and ends.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and it will not be very good. I am not looking forward to the last set of results.

I am so tried...

7pm...

...the offer went in. The agent had an appointment with the other agent. I saw the place and it was great. Now we wait and I hope with everything I am this works out. I am so nerves but trying to be positive. Hopefully I will have an answer tomorrow.

Milky

Tuesday, 9 October 2012

Packing - 11 - Outdoor Stuff

All Packed up just need four extra large containers to store it away! My gazebo will not make the move and that saddens me because I missed two summers, so I never got to enjoy it. Me so sad!

This is what it looked like. It took me two years to find one. The one! Next year will be another search, I hope.

Milky

Packing - 2 - Basement Office

So insane but finally done, yeah. This room was used both as an office not for the new business but for another business. It is so hard to believe that seven years in this place. I remember so much and wish I could forget 80% of it.

Milky

Packing - 3 - Garage

This was not an easy pack but yet not as bad as I thought it was going to be. I am just happy it is done.

Milky

Candied Apples


A recipe is merely words on paper; a guideline, a starting point from which to improvise. It cannot pretend to replace the practiced hand and telling glance of a watchful cook. For that reason feel free to stir your own ideas into this dish. When you cook it once, it becomes yours, so personalize it a bit. Add more of an ingredient you like or less of something you don't like. Try substituting one ingredient for another. Remember words have no flavour; you have to add your own!


Preparation time:
Cooking time:
Yield: 12

Ingredients

  • 2 cups water
  • 4 cups sugar
  • 2 cups corn syrup
  • Large pinch cinnamon
  • Few drops red food colouring
  • 12 Honey Crisp apples
  • 12 popsicle sticks

Directions

  1. Pour the water, sugar and corn syrup into a heavy-bottomed saucepan and bring to a boil. Continue to boil until the mixture reaches 290 degrees on a candy thermometer. This will take 20 minutes or so. Stir in the cinnamon and food coloring, and pour the hot mixture into a large bowl set over a large pot of simmering water. This will help it stay hot and make it easier to work with as you dip apples.
  2. Pierce the bottom of each apple with a Popsicle stick, then dip into the syrup and roll until fully coated. Repeat with the remaining apples. Rest on a parchment-lined baking sheet until they harden.
http://www.foodnetwork.ca/recipes/recipe.html?dishid=8634

Height did you knows



  • Did you know the typical wave height from Pacific tsunami is between 6 - 9 metres
  • Did you know clouds fly higher during the day than the night
  • Did you know when born a baby giraffe is 1.8m (6ft) tall
  • Did you know Mount Everest is 8.9km (5.5 miles) high
  • Did you know the tallest mammal is the giraffe
  • Did you know a newborn kangaroo is about 1 inch in tall
  • Did you know the Eiffel Tower is over 300m (984 ft) tall
  • Did you know banana plants can grow as high as 6 meters (20 feet) tall
  • Did you know acrophobia is the fear of heights
  • Did you know an astronaut can be up to 2 inches taller returning from space (the cartilage disks in the spine expand in the absence of gravity)

Paradelle...

...one of the most beautiful homes I have seen but the basement was not done. Lucky for as there is another one with the same layout and builder. No carpet, plus, finished basement, also a plus. I am going to see it but I already told the agent to make the offer. At this point I want out of this place before my health gets worse.

All of the stress is weighing down on me and I cannot get rid of the cold, fever and infections. I am growing weaker by the day.

Let this be the one, I beg of you! Please.

Milky

Monday, 8 October 2012

Shut up

I cannot believe how cool it is outside, now. The nights are colder and the heat was been on at nights because of a nasty cold and fever. Another summer lost and no life. That is what my life is now. No life. The majority of my life I have always been left at home alone, in silence. That is what bothers me the most - SILENCE! I hate it. I am never going to get used to it and it hurts so much. I know this will not change. This is what my life is and I have to shut up and put up.

Milky

Thanksgiving

It is Thanksgiving weekend but not here. In fact, holidays are no longer celebrated in this house or my in-laws, or my family's house. I am alone for all of these things and the sad part is that I am use to it, now. It is just like any other day.

Milky

More packing

Working on the garage, storage room and cold room. Not much to do but organize everything. I cannot wait for all of this to be over with. Although, it will not matter if we do not have a place to live in.

For months now this house has been covered in boxes and you would think that I would remember when I trip over them in the middle of the night to let Hugo out for a walk. My poor toes, knees and every other part of my body that has been smacked against corners of boxes. I have many bruises.

Today should be the last of the packing until we have a place, as of course we need some items to use.

Milky

Sunday, 7 October 2012

My life...

...is such a mess both in health and emotional. Uncontrollable crying and my heart or my tummy hurts. Real hurt, real pain! I cannot breathe, I cannot stop my mind from all of the bullsh*t that is going on around me.

It weights heavily on me and I cannot help but be trapped in this darken hell. I see no good. There is never going to be anymore good in my life since you. You were my last real good for me.

Milky

Saturday, 6 October 2012

grrrrrrr

I was wrong, things just got worse. I cannot believe how hard it is to get a place to live. I have been searching for months and nothing! Declined around ever corner and/or to late it is gone. This sucks. I am living out of boxes. How is this possible?

Milky

Exhausted

I have been so busy and I am so exhausted. Now, I am super sick. Not a good time for this seeing as I still much to do. I feel like death and do not want to get out of bed because I am weak and tired. 

Milky

Friday, 5 October 2012

The Pets




treats




Dear you....

I think of you daily and hope you are well. A year is creepy up and time has not healed all wounds. I wish things were better for all of us.

Be well, take care of you and yours.
Milky

This house...

...smells like bake good. Chocolate, strawberries, vanilla, cream and caramel. That or it is still me. I guess smelling like sweet caramel apple could be worst.

I am exhausted from all of this. I need sleep and I know it, my body definitely knows it but my mind is racing ten times more then ever, I know this because my heart is pounding and my blood pressure is through the roof.

Milky

Another offer

So, an offer was put in yesterday for a house we hate and do not want to live in but have no choice! We have put in other offers and have either missed out or was declined, or even taken off the market. What luck is that?

Somehow, I will think it to be very funny if we do not get this house! Meaning we cannot even get the dump we do not want. On the other hand it would also be funny if that dump is the one we end up with - just because someone up there is saying F**ck you! Either way, we are F**ked!

Should know soon, I hope!
Milky

4:52am

It is another night of not sleeping. It is replaced with stress, sadness, angry, frustration and hopelessness. This whole house hunting has been nothing but a nightmare. We are now offing on a house we both hate but have been given no choice.

I have been leaving without any order in this night. It is stressing me out. I do not know if I need to scream or just break down and cry. But really what would be the point.

My plate is fill with packing, a new business and trying to find a place before we are on the streets. (It would seem that we be just fine with some people) as per conversations. How do you do that to family but treat strangers who have been nothing but a pain for years.

Family does not exist here, never has, never will. This is no life. Support, kindness and love? That is replaced with liars, cheats and back stabbing fools! Or perhaps, the fools are the ones who believe that family have a bond that can never be broken. - Yes! Everything is broken and family means nothing.

Put up and shut up. That is my life, our life.

Milky

P.S.  strong people do not put others down , they lift them up! To bad there are no strong ones around!

Thursday, 4 October 2012

Order





Hopes Up

I really do not want to get my hopes up but I think this house I am going to see may be the one?!!! God, I hope with every breath I take. I am rushing today because of this house and a last minute cake order. It has been a busy crazy morning.

Update to come.

Milky

Wednesday, 3 October 2012

My List of Music - this week


1. Band on the run – Paul McCartney
2. Shake it up – The Cars
3. In the air tonight – Phil Collins
4. Lets make a night to remember – Bryan Adams
5. Don’t you – Simple Minds
6. Don’t stop believing – Journey
7. Mony Mony – Billy Idol
8. My life – Billy Joel
9. Stuck in the middle with you – Stealers Wheel
10. Sweet Caroline – Neil Diamond
11. Papa’s got a brand new bag – James Brown
12. Good vibrations – Beach Boys
13. Long cool women in a black dress – The Hollies
14. Iris – Goo Goo Dolls
15. Clocks – Coldplay
16. Hey there Delilah – Plan White T’s
17. Rhiannon – Fleetwood Mac
18. Wild horses – The Sundays
19. Breathe me – Sia
20. In my veins – Andrew Belle
21. Nothing else matters – Macy Gray
22. Just a kiss goodnight – Lady Antebellum
23. De do do do De da da da – The Police
24. Could you be loved – Bob Marley
25. Three little birds – Bob Marley