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Milky
Wednesday, 9 January 2013
Entertainment book 2013
Milky
Surf & Turf By Michael Chiarello
Ingredients
- 4 cups chicken stock
- 2 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil, divided
- 4 (4-ounce) filet mignon
- Sea salt, preferably gray salt and freshly ground black pepper
- 8 large (10/20 count) shrimp, shell on, deveined
Directions
For the filet sauce:
- 1 tablespoon minced shallots
- 1 cup red wine
- 1 teaspoon freshly chopped thyme leaves
- 1 tablespoon butter
For the shrimp sauce:
- 1 cup white wine
- 3 tablespoons butter
- 2 teaspoons minced chives
Preheat oven to 425 degrees F.
In a saucepan, over medium heat, simmer 4 cups of chicken stock until reduced by half.
In a large saute pan, heat 1 tablespoon of the olive oil over high heat until hot but not smoking.
Season the filets mignons with salt and pepper and add to the hot pan. Sear on both sides until browned nicely, about 2 to 3 minutes on each side, and transfer to oven for about 3 to 4 minutes for rare, 5 to 6 minutes for medium. Remove from oven and let rest.
Drain excess oil from the pan and return to medium heat; add the shallots and saute briefly; add the red wine and thyme and simmer for 1 minute. Add the chicken stock and continue simmering to reduce to 1 cup; remove from heat and swirl in butter. Season with salt and pepper, to taste.
In another large saute pan over high heat, heat the remaining olive oil until hot but not smoking. Season the shrimp with salt and pepper. Saute the shrimp for about 2 minutes on each side and remove from the pan to a plate.
Drain any excess oil from the pan and return to the stove. Deglaze with the white wine and reduce by 1/2. Slowly add butter, stirring to emulsify; finish with the chives. Season with salt and pepper, to taste.
To serve. On each plate arrange 1 filet and 2 shrimp, spoon about 1 tablespoon of the red wine sauce on the filet and spoon about 1 tablespoon of the white wine sauce over the shrimp. Serve warm.
In a saucepan, over medium heat, simmer 4 cups of chicken stock until reduced by half.
In a large saute pan, heat 1 tablespoon of the olive oil over high heat until hot but not smoking.
Season the filets mignons with salt and pepper and add to the hot pan. Sear on both sides until browned nicely, about 2 to 3 minutes on each side, and transfer to oven for about 3 to 4 minutes for rare, 5 to 6 minutes for medium. Remove from oven and let rest.
Drain excess oil from the pan and return to medium heat; add the shallots and saute briefly; add the red wine and thyme and simmer for 1 minute. Add the chicken stock and continue simmering to reduce to 1 cup; remove from heat and swirl in butter. Season with salt and pepper, to taste.
In another large saute pan over high heat, heat the remaining olive oil until hot but not smoking. Season the shrimp with salt and pepper. Saute the shrimp for about 2 minutes on each side and remove from the pan to a plate.
Drain any excess oil from the pan and return to the stove. Deglaze with the white wine and reduce by 1/2. Slowly add butter, stirring to emulsify; finish with the chives. Season with salt and pepper, to taste.
To serve. On each plate arrange 1 filet and 2 shrimp, spoon about 1 tablespoon of the red wine sauce on the filet and spoon about 1 tablespoon of the white wine sauce over the shrimp. Serve warm.
One More Night - Maroon 5
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You and I go rough, we keep throwing things and slamming the door.
You and I get so damn dysfunctional, we stopped keeping score.
You and I get sick, yeah, I know that we can't do this no more.
Yeah, but baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you.
Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.
Got you stuck on my body, on my body, like a tattoo.
And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid, crawling back to you.
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night
And I know I said it a million times
But I'll only stay with you one more night
Try to tell you "no" but my body keeps on telling you "yes".
Try to tell you to "stop", but your lipstick got me so out of breath.
I'll be waking up in the morning, probably hating myself.
And I'll be waking up, feeling satisfied but guilty as hell.
Yeah, but baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you.
(Making me love)
Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.
(I let it all go)
Got you stuck on my body, on my body, like a tattoo.
(Like a tattoo, yeah)
And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid, crawling back to you.
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
(Yeah)
That I'll only stay with you one more night
(Oh)
And I know I said it a million times
(Yeah)
But I'll only stay with you one more night
(Yeah)
Yeah, baby, give me one more night
Yeah, baby, give me one more night (whoa, yeah)
Yeah, baby, give me one more night (oh, yeah, yeah)
Yeah, but baby there you go again, there you go again making me love you.
Yeah, I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go.
Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
(Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh)
That I'll only stay with you one more night
(Oh oh oh oh oh oh)
And I know I said it a million times
(Oh, I said it a million times)
But I'll only stay with you one more night
(Yeah, baby give me one more night)
So I cross my heart and I hope to die (yeah, yeah)
That I'll only stay with you one more night (yeah, yeah)
And I know I said it a million times (yeah, yeah)
But I'll only stay with you one more night (yeah, yeah)
I don't know, whatever.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwK7ggA3-bU
Dinner guest pt 1
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I am planning on having people over for dinner in two weeks. I have to say I am nervous about it but also excited. I want to see them and I have gifts for the little ones. I am going to make some yummy stuff.
Cannot wait!
Milky
No one to call
I hate and miss not having that any more. It was something I looked forward to when I was down and lost. When I needed someone to listen to me, make me laugh and it made me feel important.
Late night calls shut the silence out and for some time I was all that mattered and I was heard because one person cared enough to take the time to call.
I miss that person for so many different reasons and I wish with all my heart I could have that back. But I know that will not happen and I must (HAVE) to except that.
This is what my life is now.
Late night calls shut the silence out and for some time I was all that mattered and I was heard because one person cared enough to take the time to call.
I miss that person for so many different reasons and I wish with all my heart I could have that back. But I know that will not happen and I must (HAVE) to except that.
This is what my life is now.
MIlky
Calvin Harris - Sweet Nothing ft. Florence Welch
You took my heart and you held it in your mouth
And, with the word all my love came rushing out
And, every whisper it's the worst, emptied out by a single word
There is a hollow me now
[ CHORUS ]
So I put my faith in something unknown,
I've been living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m trying to hope with nothing to hold,
I'm living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing, Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,You’re giving me such sweet nothing.
It isn’t easy for me to let it go
Cause I swallow every single word
And, every whisper, every sigheats away at this heart of mine.
And there is a hollow me now
[ CHORUS ]
So I put my faith in something unknown,
I've been living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m trying to hope with nothing to hold,
I'm living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,
And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing, Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
You’re giving me such sweet nothing.
And it's not enough
To tell me that you care,
When We both know the Words are empty air.
You Give Me Nothing!
Uoooh UooohUooohNothing!UooohUooohUoooh
Sweet NothingUooohUooohUooohSweet Nothing
Read more: CALVIN HARRIS - SWEET NOTHINGS LYRICS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17ozSeGw-fY
And, with the word all my love came rushing out
And, every whisper it's the worst, emptied out by a single word
There is a hollow me now
[ CHORUS ]
So I put my faith in something unknown,
I've been living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m trying to hope with nothing to hold,
I'm living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing, Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,You’re giving me such sweet nothing.
It isn’t easy for me to let it go
Cause I swallow every single word
And, every whisper, every sigheats away at this heart of mine.
And there is a hollow me now
[ CHORUS ]
So I put my faith in something unknown,
I've been living on such sweet nothing,
But I’m trying to hope with nothing to hold,
I'm living on such sweet nothing.
And it’s hard to learn,
And it’s hard to love,
When you’re giving me such sweet nothing, Sweet nothing,
Sweet nothing,
You’re giving me such sweet nothing.
And it's not enough
To tell me that you care,
When We both know the Words are empty air.
You Give Me Nothing!
Uoooh UooohUooohNothing!UooohUooohUoooh
Sweet NothingUooohUooohUooohSweet Nothing
Read more: CALVIN HARRIS - SWEET NOTHINGS LYRICS
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17ozSeGw-fY
On my to get list
This cookbook is suppose to be really good. I have always wanted The Count of Monte Cristo. Just my luck I cannot find either of them but then again I do not get out much.Milky
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Find Me
I may be lost but that just means I need someone to find me. I am lying to myself. You are gone and I need to come to terms with that because that is the reality. You are never coming back. I look for the signs but there are none to be seen. You will not come find me and I am forever lost.
Milky
Shutting down
We walk through life with so many wondering questions and never knowing what is in store for us. There are so many unknown possibilities in our lives and as much as we want to know what is out there for us, we are all both excited and afraid.
Excited because everything is new. Everything feels right and we enjoy the moments that are ahead of us. We learn so many different things are people, places and new ideas.
We may find love, not just the friendship kind of love but the kind that makes you weak in the knees, gives you goosebumps and butterflies. It is the love that brings you happiness and a fulfilled life.
Afraid because we fear that we will never be the person we want to be with the people we want. Fear that we will not find that one person to love and spend the rest of our lives with.
Sometime we trust the wrong people but now and again there is one person that makes you feel like anything is possible.
It is hard to stop thinking about what can be and what cannot be. I have been so unhappy, unseen, and I have had to put up with so much. when will it be my time? Being shut out by one person leads to shutting yourself down. Now, letting people in is to hard.
Excited because everything is new. Everything feels right and we enjoy the moments that are ahead of us. We learn so many different things are people, places and new ideas.
We may find love, not just the friendship kind of love but the kind that makes you weak in the knees, gives you goosebumps and butterflies. It is the love that brings you happiness and a fulfilled life.
Afraid because we fear that we will never be the person we want to be with the people we want. Fear that we will not find that one person to love and spend the rest of our lives with.
Sometime we trust the wrong people but now and again there is one person that makes you feel like anything is possible.
It is hard to stop thinking about what can be and what cannot be. I have been so unhappy, unseen, and I have had to put up with so much. when will it be my time? Being shut out by one person leads to shutting yourself down. Now, letting people in is to hard.
Milky
Wait and Hope - quote
“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must of felt what it is to die, Morrel, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life."
" Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget, that until the day God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words, 'Wait and Hope.”
" Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget, that until the day God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words, 'Wait and Hope.”
Movie did you knows
- Did you know in every episode of Seinfeld there is a reference to Superman
- Did you know there are 22 stars in the Paramount studios logo
- Did you know the movie Pulp Fiction cost $8 million to make with $5 million going towards actor's salaries
- Did you know the movie 'Wayne's World' was filmed in two weeks
- Did you know the film 'Mary Poppins' was filmed entirely indoors
- Did you know all of the clocks in the movie 'Pulp Fiction' are fixed to 4:20
- Did you know 55% of all movies are rated R
- Did you know 'Babe' was played by over 50 pigs
- Did you know the first James Bond movie was called 'Dr. No'
- Did you know before beginning his movie career Keanu Reeves managed a pasta shop in Toronto Canada
- Did you know the 1st full length animated film was released by Disney Studios in 1937 (it was Snow White and the seven dwarfs)
Alone and without power
A man far wiser and braver then I once said there may be times that we are powerless to prevent injustice but let there be never a time when we fail to protest.
Power born out of nature. Coveted by man. Wars raged on and victors are crowned. True power can never be lost or won. True power comes within.
Power can be hoarded by the mighty or stolen by the innocent. Power provide the ability to choose but has the proclivity for corruption. The use of power is not to be taken lightly for it is never without consequence.
What we do with the power we have can breaks us or it can free us. For each person it is different because not all of us believe that good could be wrong.
Good people are wrong and make mistakes. They may have chosen wrong from right but it may have been out of sheer loneliness and desperation. Their fears of being alone and wanting some sort of relief, some sense of want and desire led them to make the mistakes they made.
This act does not excuse what they have done but it does explain when someone is truly alone making the wrong choices to feel less empty would be appealing. But at some point they have to realize the choice they made was very wrong. In the end it only made them more alone with no power or control over their own life.
This is emptiness and sadness and it is crippling.
Power born out of nature. Coveted by man. Wars raged on and victors are crowned. True power can never be lost or won. True power comes within.
Power can be hoarded by the mighty or stolen by the innocent. Power provide the ability to choose but has the proclivity for corruption. The use of power is not to be taken lightly for it is never without consequence.
What we do with the power we have can breaks us or it can free us. For each person it is different because not all of us believe that good could be wrong.
Good people are wrong and make mistakes. They may have chosen wrong from right but it may have been out of sheer loneliness and desperation. Their fears of being alone and wanting some sort of relief, some sense of want and desire led them to make the mistakes they made.
This act does not excuse what they have done but it does explain when someone is truly alone making the wrong choices to feel less empty would be appealing. But at some point they have to realize the choice they made was very wrong. In the end it only made them more alone with no power or control over their own life.
This is emptiness and sadness and it is crippling.
Milky
Bad things
We walk through awful events in our lives slowly while the bad things move fast. When we grave and feel the lost it is crippling and it hits us like the waves it the reef. We think we have control over it but the fact of the matter is is knocks us down. We fight it but we drown, we fail and the lost is overwhelming. The best thing for us to do is just feel what we feel, let it run its course. One day our hearts will catch up to where we want it to be. (they promise)
Milky
Baby Steps
The sun is shining, winter is melting away and new days begin. I am still without you and the whole in my heart is not healing.
There is never a day that I do not think of you. I wonder what you are doing, if you are safe and happy. I am hoping you are taking care of yourself, being active and eating healthy.
Baby steps is all we can take to heal and move forward. I pray that you are healing because you deserve to be happy with someone truly amazing. They are the ones who are lucky because they have you in their life.
Your travels and work keep you busy but make sure you are including others in your day. Do not shut yourself off and stay on the computer. The days are nicer for your runs and keeping up with your healthier choices are important. Golfing will be around the corner for you soon, so that will be a great. I know how much you like it, even if I think it is boring.
Be well.
Milky
There is never a day that I do not think of you. I wonder what you are doing, if you are safe and happy. I am hoping you are taking care of yourself, being active and eating healthy.
Baby steps is all we can take to heal and move forward. I pray that you are healing because you deserve to be happy with someone truly amazing. They are the ones who are lucky because they have you in their life.
Your travels and work keep you busy but make sure you are including others in your day. Do not shut yourself off and stay on the computer. The days are nicer for your runs and keeping up with your healthier choices are important. Golfing will be around the corner for you soon, so that will be a great. I know how much you like it, even if I think it is boring.
Be well.
Milky
Sunday, 6 January 2013
Do you remember? No Diggity!
(feat. Dr. Dre)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9n4FrmBA2rU
You know what
I like the playettes
No diggity, no doubt
Play on playette
Play on playette
Yo Dre, drop the verse
[Dr. Dre]
It's going down, fade to Blackstreet
The homies got RB, collab' creations
Bump like Acne, no doubt
I put it down, never slouch
As long as my credit can vouch
A dog couldn't catch me ass out
Tell me who can stop when Dre making moves
Attracting honeys like a magnet
Giving em eargasms with my mellow accent
Still moving this flavour
With the homies Blackstreet and Teddy
The original rump shakers
Shorty get down, good Lord
Baby got em up open all over town
Strictly bitchy, she don't play around
Cover much ground, got game by the pound
Getting paid is a forte
Each and every day, true player way
I can't get her out of my mind
(what)
I think about the girl all the time
East side to the west side
Pushing phat rides, it's no surprise
She got tricks in the stash
Stacking up the cash
Fast when it comes to the gas
By no means average
She's on when she's got to have it
Baby, you're a perfect ten, I wanna get in
Can I get down, so I can win
[1] - I like the way you work it
No diggity, I got to bag it up, bag it up
[Repeat 1 (3x)]
She's got class and style
Street knowledge by the pound,
Baby never act wild
Very low key on the profile
Catching feelin's is a no,
Let me tell you how it goes
Herb's the words, spins the verbs
Lovers it curves so freak what you heard
Rollin' with the phatness
You don't even know what the half is
You got to pay to play
Just for shorty, bang-bang, to look your way
I like the way you work it
Trumped tight, all day, every day
You're blowing my mind, maybe in time
Baby, I can get you in my ride
[Repeat 1 (4x)]
[2] - Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Hey yo, that girl looks good
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Play on, play on playette
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
You're my kind of girl, no diggity
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Hey
[Queen Pen]
Cause that's my peeps and we row G
Flying first class from New York City to Blackstreet
What you know about me, not a motherf.. thing
Cartier wooded frames supported by my shortie
As for me, icy gleaming pinky diamond ring
We be's the baddest clique up on the scene
Ain't you getting bored with these fake ass broads
I shows and proves, no doubt, I be letting you know
Please excuse, if I come across rude
That's just me and that's how the playettes got to be
Stay kicking game with a capital G
Axe the peoples on my block, I'm as real as can be
Word is bored, faking moves never been my flavor
So, Teddy, pass the word to your nigga Chauncy
I'll be sending the car, let's say around 3:30
Queen Pen and Blackstreet, it's no diggity
[Repeat 1 (4x)]
[Repeat 2]
I like the playettes
No diggity, no doubt
Play on playette
Play on playette
Yo Dre, drop the verse
[Dr. Dre]
It's going down, fade to Blackstreet
The homies got RB, collab' creations
Bump like Acne, no doubt
I put it down, never slouch
As long as my credit can vouch
A dog couldn't catch me ass out
Tell me who can stop when Dre making moves
Attracting honeys like a magnet
Giving em eargasms with my mellow accent
Still moving this flavour
With the homies Blackstreet and Teddy
The original rump shakers
Shorty get down, good Lord
Baby got em up open all over town
Strictly bitchy, she don't play around
Cover much ground, got game by the pound
Getting paid is a forte
Each and every day, true player way
I can't get her out of my mind
(what)
I think about the girl all the time
East side to the west side
Pushing phat rides, it's no surprise
She got tricks in the stash
Stacking up the cash
Fast when it comes to the gas
By no means average
She's on when she's got to have it
Baby, you're a perfect ten, I wanna get in
Can I get down, so I can win
[1] - I like the way you work it
No diggity, I got to bag it up, bag it up
[Repeat 1 (3x)]
She's got class and style
Street knowledge by the pound,
Baby never act wild
Very low key on the profile
Catching feelin's is a no,
Let me tell you how it goes
Herb's the words, spins the verbs
Lovers it curves so freak what you heard
Rollin' with the phatness
You don't even know what the half is
You got to pay to play
Just for shorty, bang-bang, to look your way
I like the way you work it
Trumped tight, all day, every day
You're blowing my mind, maybe in time
Baby, I can get you in my ride
[Repeat 1 (4x)]
[2] - Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Hey yo, that girl looks good
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Play on, play on playette
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
You're my kind of girl, no diggity
Hey yo, hey yo, hey yo, hey yo
Hey
[Queen Pen]
Cause that's my peeps and we row G
Flying first class from New York City to Blackstreet
What you know about me, not a motherf.. thing
Cartier wooded frames supported by my shortie
As for me, icy gleaming pinky diamond ring
We be's the baddest clique up on the scene
Ain't you getting bored with these fake ass broads
I shows and proves, no doubt, I be letting you know
Please excuse, if I come across rude
That's just me and that's how the playettes got to be
Stay kicking game with a capital G
Axe the peoples on my block, I'm as real as can be
Word is bored, faking moves never been my flavor
So, Teddy, pass the word to your nigga Chauncy
I'll be sending the car, let's say around 3:30
Queen Pen and Blackstreet, it's no diggity
[Repeat 1 (4x)]
[Repeat 2]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9n4FrmBA2rU
Monday, 31 December 2012
Your heart, my heart.
I miss you, my heart, my love. Now, forever and always. Happy New Year!
Your heart
Say goodbye
Say goodbye, again. Another goodbye! A painful goodbye and each goodbye pushes us further away from each other and I hate it so much!
Milky
Milky
We were free
Life is crazy
We walk on by
Will you remember
The hurt is real
The pain is not gone
Fear is real and I am dying
Life was beautiful
We walk on by
Will you remember
The love was real
The happiness was all we needed
Hope was alive
All that we can believe
Are the tears that we cry
All that we can believe
Are the times we loved
And were free
Milky
New Year Eve - Quote
The ball has stopped half to its purch. It is suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps, our promises made and broken, the times we opened ourselves up to great advantures or close ourselves down for fear for getting hurt. Because that is what New Years is about. Getting another chance, a chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more and to stop worrying about what if's and start embarrassing what will be. So, when that ball drops at midnight, and it will drop, let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other and not just tonight but all year round.
A part from the movie I really liked and thought it was a beautiful thought.
A part from the movie I really liked and thought it was a beautiful thought.
Milky
Second chances do not expire at midnight!
Second chances do not expire at midnight!
Facebook crazy people!
I have all kinds of people being added but I never asked anyone? Yet, they have confirmed that we are friends? Facebook is creepy crazy!
Milky
Milky
Big fresh ball of fur!
Phoenix has this odd habit of taking my flip flop off my foot and making a mad dash off with it. Hmmmmm, you think he want to play? Yes, you would be right! I play with him, get him going and 30 seconds later he runs to my bed to pass out! Lol!?? What an old fart! He kills me! Fun and games are over, nap time for him.
Milky
Milky
New Years Eve
I am home alone, I knew it would be this way. For the most part being out is desired and yet I want to stay home. Being around people is getting harder for me each day. I just do not want to pretend or lie about how I am feeling. The fact is that I am still not okay and it looks or feels like I never will be.
I am starting a new year alone but let's be honest I am always alone. I am alone everyday, every night and for every important mile stone. I know that friends have asked me to come out with them and I have declined many times, so I am sure they are giving up on me. I do not blame them, I blame myself.
I really do not know how I got back here. Cutting out the world and hiding who I am and what makes me - me. A lot of it has to do with what and who I have lost, while other reasons do play a part of my reasons. I just do not like myself, in the end that is what it is really about.
If I do not like myself, how the hell can I ask others to like me, let alone be around me?
I wish all of you a wonderful and safe New Year!
Milky
I am starting a new year alone but let's be honest I am always alone. I am alone everyday, every night and for every important mile stone. I know that friends have asked me to come out with them and I have declined many times, so I am sure they are giving up on me. I do not blame them, I blame myself.
I really do not know how I got back here. Cutting out the world and hiding who I am and what makes me - me. A lot of it has to do with what and who I have lost, while other reasons do play a part of my reasons. I just do not like myself, in the end that is what it is really about.
If I do not like myself, how the hell can I ask others to like me, let alone be around me?
I wish all of you a wonderful and safe New Year!
Milky
Wtfh?
Just came home from the movie. It was okay but out of nowhere I am in so much pain. It is like some just stabbed me in my back, my side and tummy. Good lord! My body is shaking and my heart is racing and pounding like crazy. This is 100% nuts!
Milky
Milky
Movie Time
I am going out today to see a movie with my sister in law. A comedy not really my thing but hopefully it will be funny. I need some laugh time instead of more crying. It will also be nice to get outside for a bit. I have been locked up for a week and it is driving me nuts.
Farmland is great but with not much around it tends to suck.
Farmland is great but with not much around it tends to suck.
Milky
Saturday, 29 December 2012
I would walk 500 miles! The Proclaimers
When I wake up, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out, yeah, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
If I get drunk, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver, hey, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
When I'm working, yes, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's working hard for you
And when the money comes in for the work I do
I'll pass almost every penny on to you
When I come home (When I come home), oh, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you
And if I grow old, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
When I'm lonely, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
And when I'm dreaming, well, I know I'm gonna dream
I'm gonna dream about the time when I'm with you
When I go out (When I go out), well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
And when I come home (When I come home), yes, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home with you
I'm gonna be the man who's coming home with you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
And I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your doorhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmPFioq1l6o
I'm gonna be the man who wakes up next to you
When I go out, yeah, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
If I get drunk, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who gets drunk next to you
And if I haver, hey, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's havering to you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
When I'm working, yes, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's working hard for you
And when the money comes in for the work I do
I'll pass almost every penny on to you
When I come home (When I come home), oh, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home to you
And if I grow old, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's growing old with you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
When I'm lonely, well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
And when I'm dreaming, well, I know I'm gonna dream
I'm gonna dream about the time when I'm with you
When I go out (When I go out), well, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who goes along with you
And when I come home (When I come home), yes, I know I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be the man who comes back home with you
I'm gonna be the man who's coming home with you
But I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your door
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
Da lat da (Da lat da), da lat da (Da lat da)
Da-da-da dun-diddle un-diddle un-diddle uh da-da
And I would walk five hundred miles
And I would walk five hundred more
Just to be the man who walked a thousand miles
To fall down at your doorhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmPFioq1l6o
Rie
Not Going Anywhere
Will you hold on to me tonight, we can pretend to be fine
I don't want to let you go
Cause nothing here is makes sense and our world is caving in
But I don't want to let you go
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this -I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
Tell me what’s left of us remains, is all worth it all in the end
I don't want to let you go
I want to be your confidant, you can tell me anything you want
I don't want to let you go
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this - I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
So tell me how do we find
How to love by letting it go
So tell me how do I try
To let you go when I only want to hold on
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this - I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
Will you hold on to me tonight, we can pretend to be fine
I don't want to let you go
Cause nothing here is makes sense and our world is caving in
But I don't want to let you go
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this -I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
Tell me what’s left of us remains, is all worth it all in the end
I don't want to let you go
I want to be your confidant, you can tell me anything you want
I don't want to let you go
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this - I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
So tell me how do we find
How to love by letting it go
So tell me how do I try
To let you go when I only want to hold on
They say that if you give it all up
Everything will work itself out
Well know this - I'm waving my flag in the air
Believe me when I say I'm right here
I'm not going anywhere
Rie Sinclair - Pale
Strum for me on your harmony
Steel and wound, your rocket ship launches on
Hush little sugar don't forget
All your sails are up and dancing in the air
Tarnished stars hung, broken night song
Reason cannot cry but I love you always
Lighting seeds crash pale on your pillowcase
Teary eyelids fall but I love you always
Play & sing on your harmony
Shiny black your compass flips and draws you back
Hush little sugar have no fear
Strum for me & float into the midnight sea
Tarnished stars hung, broken night song
Reason cannot cry but I love you always
Lighting seeds crash pale on your pillowcase
Teary eyelids fall but I love you always
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bL20iTwpp0
http://www.riesinclair.com/
Steel and wound, your rocket ship launches on
Hush little sugar don't forget
All your sails are up and dancing in the air
Tarnished stars hung, broken night song
Reason cannot cry but I love you always
Lighting seeds crash pale on your pillowcase
Teary eyelids fall but I love you always
Play & sing on your harmony
Shiny black your compass flips and draws you back
Hush little sugar have no fear
Strum for me & float into the midnight sea
Tarnished stars hung, broken night song
Reason cannot cry but I love you always
Lighting seeds crash pale on your pillowcase
Teary eyelids fall but I love you always
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bL20iTwpp0
http://www.riesinclair.com/
BarlowGirl - I Need You To Love Me
Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You
[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me
I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You
[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me
I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOyNOzCGZ1c
Infected Finger
Only me! My finger is infected and it kills. I mean how is it possible that I cut my finger on a bone in the damn bird while preparing to cook it!?
Leave it to me. I guess it really does not surprise me. I tend to be clumsy but I am most definitely not trying to be. It just happens that way and things to not go according to plan. Even though I plan things very carefully.
Oh well, I guess this can be added to the rest of my list of injuries.
Leave it to me. I guess it really does not surprise me. I tend to be clumsy but I am most definitely not trying to be. It just happens that way and things to not go according to plan. Even though I plan things very carefully.
Oh well, I guess this can be added to the rest of my list of injuries.
Milky
Hate me
I am sitting at my desk in my office. Hugo is at my feet under the desk snoring, as always. It is dark outside, so I cannot see anything. The house is quite but that is the case for the most part, that is until both Phoenix and Hugo decide to bark like mad dogs in heat.
Writing something down is not always easy for me. Sometimes I will talk about random nothings and other times it might be interesting thought that may or may not touch someone when they read my words.
I am not of any importance so the likely hood that people care are not likely. More or less this is for me to write and one day come back to read it. Perhaps, along the way I will have learned more about myself and will understand my mistakes in life.
I am not without flaws but no one is. I know my wrongs and will admit them, do you, does anyone else feel the same? Who knows, right? People are all different and the way we handle our mistakes are very different. I feel guilt and sadness when I think of all the foolish things I have done. They were stupid and as much as I am sorry I cannot redo life.
I think it is those who have been hurt by mistakes are the ones I wish to fix. No, it is not my place to do so but they were hurt and I hate that. I hate me for that.
Writing something down is not always easy for me. Sometimes I will talk about random nothings and other times it might be interesting thought that may or may not touch someone when they read my words.
I am not of any importance so the likely hood that people care are not likely. More or less this is for me to write and one day come back to read it. Perhaps, along the way I will have learned more about myself and will understand my mistakes in life.
I am not without flaws but no one is. I know my wrongs and will admit them, do you, does anyone else feel the same? Who knows, right? People are all different and the way we handle our mistakes are very different. I feel guilt and sadness when I think of all the foolish things I have done. They were stupid and as much as I am sorry I cannot redo life.
I think it is those who have been hurt by mistakes are the ones I wish to fix. No, it is not my place to do so but they were hurt and I hate that. I hate me for that.
Milky
Staring
Sometimes I stare at my telephone hoping that it will be you calling. Other times I want to call you. Neither will ever happen. I had hoped and dreamed that this was not to be forever but it is and forever is a long time.
I think of many things that cannot happen and it drives me insane. At times I think taking up drinking will help to numb the pain and perhaps, bury all memories of you. I know that is stupid and not the answer.
The fact is forgetting you is not the answer either. If I did then I would have never known what love was like or could be like. I wish I had more time and at the same time I know it would have been selfish. You need to be in peace and I truly hope that you have found peace.
Milky
I think of many things that cannot happen and it drives me insane. At times I think taking up drinking will help to numb the pain and perhaps, bury all memories of you. I know that is stupid and not the answer.
The fact is forgetting you is not the answer either. If I did then I would have never known what love was like or could be like. I wish I had more time and at the same time I know it would have been selfish. You need to be in peace and I truly hope that you have found peace.
Milky
Rie Sinclair - No Way Out
You turn the room a shade heaven
And learn my name
The world asleep
While stone and sand keep shifting
Were the heart made of brass?
O I a bird inside a cage?
Waiting, unfolded, hue and clay
Giving into your refrain and melody
The very thought unbinding me
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
Will time illuminate the stains
And stop the pain
The night you held me under a spell
You know I cannot hide
You're the very thing unwinding me
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
Tear my soul like paper
Carefully breaking off
A bitter tonic of lies
You cut me deeper inside
Only to sew me back up
You turn the room a shade heaven
You know my name
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_t6rcja1Gk
And learn my name
The world asleep
While stone and sand keep shifting
Were the heart made of brass?
O I a bird inside a cage?
Waiting, unfolded, hue and clay
Giving into your refrain and melody
The very thought unbinding me
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
Will time illuminate the stains
And stop the pain
The night you held me under a spell
You know I cannot hide
You're the very thing unwinding me
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
Tear my soul like paper
Carefully breaking off
A bitter tonic of lies
You cut me deeper inside
Only to sew me back up
You turn the room a shade heaven
You know my name
No one ever will love me better than
Your everlasting love
I found only one way in and no way out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_t6rcja1Gk
Friday, 28 December 2012
Butter Avenue
Milky
What are Macarons?
A macaron (French pronunciation: [makaˈʁɔ̃][1] is a sweet meringue-based confectionery made with egg whites, icing sugar, granulated sugar, almond powder or ground almond, and food colouring.[2] The macaron is commonly filled with ganache, buttercream or jam filling sandwiched between two cookies. Its name is derived from the Italian word maccarone or maccherone.
The confectionery is characterised by its smooth, squared top, ruffled circumference (referred to as the "foot"), and flat base. It is mildly moist and easily melts in the mouth.[3] Macarons can be found in a wide variety of flavors that range from the traditional (raspberry, chocolate) to the new (foie gras, matcha).[4] The fillings can range from jams to ganache to butter.
Since the English word macaroon can also refer to the coconut macaroon, many have adopted the French spelling of macaron to distinguish the two items in the English language. However, this has caused confusion over the correct spelling. Some recipes exclude the use of macaroon to refer to this French confection while others think that they are synonymous.[5]
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Titanium - David Guetta ft. Sia
[Sia:]You shout it out,
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up
[Chorus:]
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
[Sia:]
Cut me down
But it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town, haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud not saying much
[Chorus:]
I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium
[Sia:]
Stone-hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone-hard as bulletproof glass
[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium
Love Never Fails
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This may be true for same and yet not so much for others. This does include me and it really sucks. I always thought that I would have a loving husband and beautiful children. I thought that we would grow old and grey together, sitting on the porch drinking lemonade on a hot summer afternoon, watching our grand babies running around and there would be love and happiness. But that is not the case. Instead I am growing old and grey alone with no one to share my days with. So, NO! Love does fail!
Milky
Things to Tell -Rie Sinclair
How can I tell you
how you caught me off guard with your heart,
I need a little time to believe in love.
Some of these thoughts don’t add up to rational black and white,
Wishing right now to erase them and start again.
See, I need you, I need us, and to believe in love,
I need truth, and not just the hard answer,
I need to and I need to tell you the things I’m afraid to.
So don’t leave me far in the distance,
measuring time isn’t right,
the cause and effect of what you did when you walked in my life.
Only spells danger to be vulnerable, and I wonder if your wounds will heal mine,
But just in case I may need a little time.
I need you, I need us, and to believe in love,
I need truth, and not just, the hard answer,
and I need to, I need to tell you the things I’m afraid to.
Oh..well… Tell me that you’ll stay;
tell me you won’t walk away,
even if I take awhile.
Also tell me that you’ll be there, tell me that you need me
Even if this is hard to do...
‘Coz I… I need you, I need us and to believe in love,
I need truth, not just a hard answer,
I need to, I need to tell you things I’m afraid to,
because falling again isn’t easy and baby this may take a little time.
Read more at http://www.lyrics.com/things-to-tell-lyrics-rie-sinclair.html#RVUC8rUReEgHH0e5.99
how you caught me off guard with your heart,
I need a little time to believe in love.
Some of these thoughts don’t add up to rational black and white,
Wishing right now to erase them and start again.
See, I need you, I need us, and to believe in love,
I need truth, and not just the hard answer,
I need to and I need to tell you the things I’m afraid to.
So don’t leave me far in the distance,
measuring time isn’t right,
the cause and effect of what you did when you walked in my life.
Only spells danger to be vulnerable, and I wonder if your wounds will heal mine,
But just in case I may need a little time.
I need you, I need us, and to believe in love,
I need truth, and not just, the hard answer,
and I need to, I need to tell you the things I’m afraid to.
Oh..well… Tell me that you’ll stay;
tell me you won’t walk away,
even if I take awhile.
Also tell me that you’ll be there, tell me that you need me
Even if this is hard to do...
‘Coz I… I need you, I need us and to believe in love,
I need truth, not just a hard answer,
I need to, I need to tell you things I’m afraid to,
because falling again isn’t easy and baby this may take a little time.
Read more at http://www.lyrics.com/things-to-tell-lyrics-rie-sinclair.html#RVUC8rUReEgHH0e5.99
(forget)
the pain inside is so unreal and after all this time I would have never guessed it would hurt this much. But I was wrong and clearly not over you. I do not know what to do about it. How do I stop feeling this way? About you? How do I just let go? It is crazy, I am crazy for allowing myself to feel like this. I hate it.
I want to forget and at the same time I do not. I guess the pain is a reminder of what and how things were. Bad and good. Wrong or right is was there.
I have excepted that you are gone and will never return to my world and that I to get passed all of this but it is so hard. Yesterday showed me just how hard it truly was. The hole inside me is now ten times deeper and bigger.
I just want to go home, hide under the blankets and sleep. (forget)
Milky
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Art by Soho ArtThursday, 27 December 2012
I never let go
I have been hurting so much since you have been gone and I thought as time went by it would hurt less and go away, but it never went away.
I, now have this huge empty hole inside me bigger then ever and it is killing me like nothing I have felt before. It is physical pain, strong, tight and it takes my breathe away.
I do not understand why it still hurts so much or why I cannot get over you. Having this pain, I know that you are real and love was real but now it is the pain that is real. So much pain.
I need you, I need us and I never let go.
Milky
I, now have this huge empty hole inside me bigger then ever and it is killing me like nothing I have felt before. It is physical pain, strong, tight and it takes my breathe away.
I do not understand why it still hurts so much or why I cannot get over you. Having this pain, I know that you are real and love was real but now it is the pain that is real. So much pain.
I need you, I need us and I never let go.
Milky
You are completely gone
No more hello, love
No more of your voice
Now, you are completely gone
It is killing deep within me, having to lose you all over, again
The screams are dying to come out but no one can hear them
More silence
And the tears well up in my eyes, the tears fall down my face
The tears will not stop, the tears will not go away
Because the last piece of you is gone
No more laughter
No more of your loving words
Now, you are completely gone
My heart is killing deep within me
The angry is dying to come out but no one can ever know
More silence, overwhelming silence
And I am still crying, the tear keep falling
Because the last piece of you is gone
No more I love you
No more I am missing you
Now, you are completely gone
The hole inside is painful deep within me
The pain is dying to come out but you are there to help
More silence, to much silence
And the tears welling in my eyes keep falling
Because the last piece of you that held onto for so long is gone
How do I move on now that you are completely gone?
Milky
No more of your voice
Now, you are completely gone
It is killing deep within me, having to lose you all over, again
The screams are dying to come out but no one can hear them
More silence
And the tears well up in my eyes, the tears fall down my face
The tears will not stop, the tears will not go away
Because the last piece of you is gone
No more laughter
No more of your loving words
Now, you are completely gone
My heart is killing deep within me
The angry is dying to come out but no one can ever know
More silence, overwhelming silence
And I am still crying, the tear keep falling
Because the last piece of you is gone
No more I love you
No more I am missing you
Now, you are completely gone
The hole inside is painful deep within me
The pain is dying to come out but you are there to help
More silence, to much silence
And the tears welling in my eyes keep falling
Because the last piece of you that held onto for so long is gone
How do I move on now that you are completely gone?
Milky
Telus
I looked online to see if I could get your voice message back and it says to select 19 from the main menu and it will be recovered but it is not recovering your message. I do not know what to do and it hurts so much. I hurt so much because I am losing you all over again!
I want to scream but I cannot even breathe. I cannot talk through the tears and you are gone! Please please please do not let this be! Not to be forever, oh god!
After all this time it should not still hurt but it does! I just want it to stop! I want to be over you! I cannot handle this anymore. You are gone! Gone! Let me be gone! I hurt so much. My heart is breaking all over again, why?
Every single month I saved that message. It is all I had left of you, of us. After all this time! You are gone. You are gone! I do not know what to do, now. I lost you all over again! It hurts so bloody much!
What do I do?
I want to scream but I cannot even breathe. I cannot talk through the tears and you are gone! Please please please do not let this be! Not to be forever, oh god!
After all this time it should not still hurt but it does! I just want it to stop! I want to be over you! I cannot handle this anymore. You are gone! Gone! Let me be gone! I hurt so much. My heart is breaking all over again, why?
Every single month I saved that message. It is all I had left of you, of us. After all this time! You are gone. You are gone! I do not know what to do, now. I lost you all over again! It hurts so bloody much!
What do I do?
It is 3:25am and I cannot sleep. I am missing you. When I do I go to voicemail and there you are. You have beautiful things to say and I have kept it after all this time. Each month resaving it. Tonight was different instead of saving the message I deleted it!
Now, you are truly gone and I am so broken heartached all over again. It was by mistake and I have nothing of you anymore. You left me all over again. I cannot breathe!
Now, you are truly gone and I am so broken heartached all over again. It was by mistake and I have nothing of you anymore. You left me all over again. I cannot breathe!
Wednesday, 26 December 2012
Boxing Day
You would think that I would have slept last but I did not! I tossed and turned, had bad dreams and nightmares. It is getting closer to a year, since my breakdown and I am starting to freak out more. I do not know what to do or how to stop myself from losing control.
I am worrying about how things are and wish so much that things would be different. There are so many things going through my mind and so many things I wish I could change but I know that cannot happen and it is killing me inside!
Milky
I am worrying about how things are and wish so much that things would be different. There are so many things going through my mind and so many things I wish I could change but I know that cannot happen and it is killing me inside!
Milky
Holiday 3
I did not sleep well or even enough. I was very upset that my sister cancelled on me. Of course I had to get up to start cooking.
I did all the prep work, had everything ready. I cooked everything at my house to take to my in laws. Once I got everything ready and started cooking their food I had to start dressing the turkey I got for dinner with my sister.
That bird was a killer! I could not get the neck out, so he helped but it was wedged inside so tightly. Our hands and fingers were frozen. I took my hand out washed them and it was then that we noticed the blood.
I kept saying where is the blood coming from. He said from your finger. Sure enough my finger was bleeding. He wrapped it up tightly but it was bleeding through. We wrapped it more and I put a glove on. He helped me to finish the rest.
Leave it to me to get hurt.
One turkey
One pork roast
Green beans with butter and garlic
Carrots
Corn
Stuffing
20 lbs of mashed potatoes
Two gravies
Broth with egg noodles
Cupcakes
All of this cooked and ready to go. He packed up the car and it got ready. We finished off the cooking at their house so that I could start my turkey.
Omg! It was so much cooking going on. I still cannot believe that he helped me. I asked repeatedly to rewrap my finger and he would take me to the hospital to get stitches but I just wanted to get the dinner done and over with.
We had dinner and to my surprise it did not suck, or at least they did not say it sucked. Some had a lot to me. My mother in law and father in law love it. My brother in laws said thank you, again a surprise. All of these surprises confused me. But the fact that I got through it was great.
At that point my sister messages me, she wanted to come over for our dinner. He took me home and picked her up. Our dinner was at 9:30pm. Dinner at my in laws was at 5pm. He and I did not eat much there because we were having dinner here later.
The killer bird was finally dead, stuffing, roasted and eaten! It actullay turned out perfect. Except for the part that I cut my fingerprint pad off on finger! That was done on the bone of the bird and not a knife. Who knew?
My sister opened her gifts and we had a few laughs. He took her home and Christmas was over. No mess to clean up, because I cleaned as I went. Which was a good thing because I was so tired.
I hope everyone had a beautiful wonderful Christmas with their love ones.
Milky
Ps. The writer to the comment of merry Christmas, thank you.
I did all the prep work, had everything ready. I cooked everything at my house to take to my in laws. Once I got everything ready and started cooking their food I had to start dressing the turkey I got for dinner with my sister.
That bird was a killer! I could not get the neck out, so he helped but it was wedged inside so tightly. Our hands and fingers were frozen. I took my hand out washed them and it was then that we noticed the blood.
I kept saying where is the blood coming from. He said from your finger. Sure enough my finger was bleeding. He wrapped it up tightly but it was bleeding through. We wrapped it more and I put a glove on. He helped me to finish the rest.
Leave it to me to get hurt.
One turkey
One pork roast
Green beans with butter and garlic
Carrots
Corn
Stuffing
20 lbs of mashed potatoes
Two gravies
Broth with egg noodles
Cupcakes
All of this cooked and ready to go. He packed up the car and it got ready. We finished off the cooking at their house so that I could start my turkey.
Omg! It was so much cooking going on. I still cannot believe that he helped me. I asked repeatedly to rewrap my finger and he would take me to the hospital to get stitches but I just wanted to get the dinner done and over with.
We had dinner and to my surprise it did not suck, or at least they did not say it sucked. Some had a lot to me. My mother in law and father in law love it. My brother in laws said thank you, again a surprise. All of these surprises confused me. But the fact that I got through it was great.
At that point my sister messages me, she wanted to come over for our dinner. He took me home and picked her up. Our dinner was at 9:30pm. Dinner at my in laws was at 5pm. He and I did not eat much there because we were having dinner here later.
The killer bird was finally dead, stuffing, roasted and eaten! It actullay turned out perfect. Except for the part that I cut my fingerprint pad off on finger! That was done on the bone of the bird and not a knife. Who knew?
My sister opened her gifts and we had a few laughs. He took her home and Christmas was over. No mess to clean up, because I cleaned as I went. Which was a good thing because I was so tired.
I hope everyone had a beautiful wonderful Christmas with their love ones.
Milky
Ps. The writer to the comment of merry Christmas, thank you.
Holiday 2
Christmas Eve. I made black olives and tuna in a red sauce over pasta with crusty bread. That was part one. I made butter lemon basa fish with shrimp over brown rice and sweet corn. That was part two. Insalate with aged balsamic dressing and more crusty bread. I was surprised that he liked it. the pasta was something I learned from my mother in law and we have not had it in serval years. It turned out very well.
I made a caramel spice coffee bundt cake with fresh whip cream to bring to my in laws. They love it, so I am going to put it on the menu.
My father in law kept saying it is good, very fresh and still warm inside. He kept asking if it was from the bakery? I kept telling him I made it just before we came over. He was not getting until I told him the third time. It was pretty funny.
My mother in law was brought home both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. She was so happy about that and it was good to see her back in her house. It is a shame that she had to go back to the hospital. I hate seeing her there but she is well cared for there.
I made a caramel spice coffee bundt cake with fresh whip cream to bring to my in laws. They love it, so I am going to put it on the menu.
My father in law kept saying it is good, very fresh and still warm inside. He kept asking if it was from the bakery? I kept telling him I made it just before we came over. He was not getting until I told him the third time. It was pretty funny.
My mother in law was brought home both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. She was so happy about that and it was good to see her back in her house. It is a shame that she had to go back to the hospital. I hate seeing her there but she is well cared for there.
Milky
Tuesday, 25 December 2012
Merry Christmas
It is 4:02am Christmas morning. My house looks like Christmas and smells like Christmas. My sister really wanted Christmas here and I felt bad so I said okay.
I have been baking for days and cooking like crazy to make this day special for her and for my in laws.
My sister cancelled Christmas and she just did it 30 minutes ago. I have been beating myself to have a relationship her and that is not easy with all the crap and lies that witch told my sister. I know she has something to do with this.
I have never nor will I ever turn my back on my siblings but this really sucks and hurts so damn much.
Some Christmas this is. One side no family and the other side no respect, I am just the cook and cleaner.
I am the most stupidest person in the world. And truly alone.
Merry Christmas.
Milky.
I have been baking for days and cooking like crazy to make this day special for her and for my in laws.
My sister cancelled Christmas and she just did it 30 minutes ago. I have been beating myself to have a relationship her and that is not easy with all the crap and lies that witch told my sister. I know she has something to do with this.
I have never nor will I ever turn my back on my siblings but this really sucks and hurts so damn much.
Some Christmas this is. One side no family and the other side no respect, I am just the cook and cleaner.
I am the most stupidest person in the world. And truly alone.
Merry Christmas.
Milky.
Sunday, 23 December 2012
Holidays 1
I did so much baking the last two days. The house smells like a bakery and so do I. It is all over me and even in my hair. Shower time. I have so much to cook in the next two day. I still need to bake a spice coffee cake and cookies. Photographs to follow.
My first set of gifts were given today and this little loves spider-man so much. His eyes lit up and I swear he stopped breathing for a moment. I filled a box of nothing but spider-man things. It was crazy good.
This is why I like Christmas. When it is about the children and not the silly who got whom what.
More to come.
My first set of gifts were given today and this little loves spider-man so much. His eyes lit up and I swear he stopped breathing for a moment. I filled a box of nothing but spider-man things. It was crazy good.
This is why I like Christmas. When it is about the children and not the silly who got whom what.
More to come.
Milky
Saturday, 22 December 2012
The baking starts
...this is going to get a bit messy! The repair guys are gone and I am going to start baking. Oh, happy joy! I actually like this part of my life.
Milky
Milky
Blackberry
I have to say that I hate the blackberry cell phone but I also hate the IPhones. I do not think that there is ever going to be a cell that is going to be great!
Pros for Blackberry
You can hear clearly on it
There are some good apps for it
BBM is easy and great
Emails are great
Cons for the Blackberry
Does not hold the charge well when you have to many photographs on it
Does not take great photographs
The delay for taking photographs sucks
Live Profile is to slow and will freeze my cell (BBM for Blackberry and IPhones)
There are pros and cons for IPhone too. They drop calls and you can never hear the other person very well.
Now there is the new window cell, maybe that one will be better but the chances are that it will soon suck, too.
Milky
Pros for Blackberry
You can hear clearly on it
There are some good apps for it
BBM is easy and great
Emails are great
Cons for the Blackberry
Does not hold the charge well when you have to many photographs on it
Does not take great photographs
The delay for taking photographs sucks
Live Profile is to slow and will freeze my cell (BBM for Blackberry and IPhones)
There are pros and cons for IPhone too. They drop calls and you can never hear the other person very well.
Now there is the new window cell, maybe that one will be better but the chances are that it will soon suck, too.
Milky
Gingerbread Cookies from Food Network
Paula Dean RecipeIngredients
- 3/4 cup packed dark brown sugar
- 1 stick butter or margarine, softened
- 2 large eggs
- 1/4 cup molasses
- 3 3/4 cups all-purpose flour, plus more for dusting work surface
- 2 teaspoons ground ginger
- 1 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
- 1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/2 teaspoon freshly grated nutmeg
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
Icing:
- 1 cup confectioners' sugar, sifted
- 1 to 2 tablespoons milk
- Food coloring, as desired
Directions
Using an electric mixer at low speed, cream the sugar and butter until thoroughly combined. Add the eggs and molasses and mix until combined. Sift together the flour, ginger, baking soda, cinnamon, nutmeg, and salt. Add the dry ingredients to the butter mixture and combine with a spoon or spatula.
Remove the dough from the bowl and wrap in plastic wrap; place in the refrigerator until firm, about 1 hour.
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Line cookie sheets with parchment paper. Allow the dough to sit at room temperature for about 15 minutes, until pliable. Take about 1/2 cup of dough at a time and roll onto a floured board until about 1/8-inch thick. Cut out with gingerbread boy and girl cookie cutters. You can re-roll the scraps. Using a spatula, transfer the cookies from the board to the prepared cookie sheets.
Bake for 10 minutes, until just beginning to brown at the edges. Transfer to wire racks to cool.
To make the icing, combine the confectioners' sugar and milk. Divide the mixture into thirds; leave 1/3 white, and color 1/3 green and the final third red. Decorate piping eyes, mouths, buttons, and bow ties.
Remove the dough from the bowl and wrap in plastic wrap; place in the refrigerator until firm, about 1 hour.
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Line cookie sheets with parchment paper. Allow the dough to sit at room temperature for about 15 minutes, until pliable. Take about 1/2 cup of dough at a time and roll onto a floured board until about 1/8-inch thick. Cut out with gingerbread boy and girl cookie cutters. You can re-roll the scraps. Using a spatula, transfer the cookies from the board to the prepared cookie sheets.
Bake for 10 minutes, until just beginning to brown at the edges. Transfer to wire racks to cool.
To make the icing, combine the confectioners' sugar and milk. Divide the mixture into thirds; leave 1/3 white, and color 1/3 green and the final third red. Decorate piping eyes, mouths, buttons, and bow ties.
My HEAD!!!!
OMG! If it was not bad enough it just got worse. These guys are cut wood with a saw from hell. My head is splitting in half. I am going to be sick. They have no idea what they are doing and I know that I would be able to do a better job. This is insane! I cannot wait for them to go. I hate being here alone with them and I am so mad at this bum that I just want to chew him out!
Milky
Last Night
The wind was howling so hard last night. The television gets knocked out every time so it is super quite here. That leaves me reading or it would if I could find the box with the books. We have a fireplace and it is huge but I will not use it because I do not think it has been used in years. So, with my luck the house would burn down.
It would be nice to be curled up on the sofa with a book and a nice burning fire. I am out of luck for two things.
This house has the charm and oldness that I like. It also has the size and a great yard but because it was never taken care of properly there have been so many issues and repairs needed.
When I think about how nice it could have been and all the great memories that would have been it makes me sad. We will be here for the year, perhaps two but then we move again and that makes me mad, upset and it is just a reminder of how bad things are.
No life, no love and no family. It is not hard to understand why I would be upset or even insane. If others live this way, I am sorry. I have no idea how they handle it because being alone sucks.
It would be nice to be curled up on the sofa with a book and a nice burning fire. I am out of luck for two things.
This house has the charm and oldness that I like. It also has the size and a great yard but because it was never taken care of properly there have been so many issues and repairs needed.
When I think about how nice it could have been and all the great memories that would have been it makes me sad. We will be here for the year, perhaps two but then we move again and that makes me mad, upset and it is just a reminder of how bad things are.
No life, no love and no family. It is not hard to understand why I would be upset or even insane. If others live this way, I am sorry. I have no idea how they handle it because being alone sucks.
Milky
Snow Day
We have had some snow falling in but it has stopped. The parkyard has a blanket of snow on it and Phoenix loves it. Hugo, not so much but I think it is because has fur gets wet and it is to heavy for him to carry. It is really funny to watch him run back to the house with his floppy ears and his rabbit run/hop.
I wanted snow and hope it snows through Christmas to New Years Day but then it can stop and melt away for the rest of the year. Any luck of that happening? No, I am sure none. Oh, well. At least my bedroom is not an oven anymore.
I wanted snow and hope it snows through Christmas to New Years Day but then it can stop and melt away for the rest of the year. Any luck of that happening? No, I am sure none. Oh, well. At least my bedroom is not an oven anymore.
Milky
Honestly, I really do not get facebook. I think the whole thing is dumb. It is not for me that is for sure. I know so many people that have it and think it is great but I am not seeing what is great about it.
I am maintaining a page for the business and I am always getting updates but not I things I even care about or even know about for that matter. All care about is that people are seeing the business.
Today, was the first day that a client from the babytime show has called in to redeem a coupon. So, hopefully this is the first of many. Who knows!
I am maintaining a page for the business and I am always getting updates but not I things I even care about or even know about for that matter. All care about is that people are seeing the business.
Today, was the first day that a client from the babytime show has called in to redeem a coupon. So, hopefully this is the first of many. Who knows!
Milky
Holidays/Repairs
I did not think that these two things would be put together but here I am waiting for the repair guy to come. He was suppose to be here in the morning and it is now 2:05 pm. That does not surprise me at all. I have so much baking to do for the holidays that I need to get done today. This bum better hurry up up or I am going to put hot coal up his a**!!!!
Milky
Milky
Wednesday, 19 December 2012
The Killers - Here With Me
Wheels are turning
I remember when you were mine
Now just to reach you
Baby, I'd stand in line
But there's another world
We're living in
Tonight
And there's another heart
That's fading in
The light
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
Don't want your memory
In my head now
I want you here with me
Spent the summer, just laying out in the sun
Time seems to move so slow
When you're taking it as it comes
Maybe we were just too young
Your body was tanned and your hair was long
You showed me your smile and my cares were gone
Falling in love filled my soul with fright
You said "Come on babe, it'll be alright"
I must have been a fool to the bitter end
Now I hold on to hope to have you back again
I'd bargain and I'd fight
But there's another world
We're living in
Tonight
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
I don't want your memory
In my head now
I want you here with me
Well I saw you in a restaurant
The other day
And instead of walking towards you
I ran away
And I'll keep on waiting for you
Till you'll come around
Come around and say
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
Don't need those memories
In my head now
I want you here with me
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Here with me
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Here with me
I remember when you were mine
Now just to reach you
Baby, I'd stand in line
But there's another world
We're living in
Tonight
And there's another heart
That's fading in
The light
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
Don't want your memory
In my head now
I want you here with me
Spent the summer, just laying out in the sun
Time seems to move so slow
When you're taking it as it comes
Maybe we were just too young
Your body was tanned and your hair was long
You showed me your smile and my cares were gone
Falling in love filled my soul with fright
You said "Come on babe, it'll be alright"
I must have been a fool to the bitter end
Now I hold on to hope to have you back again
I'd bargain and I'd fight
But there's another world
We're living in
Tonight
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
I don't want your memory
In my head now
I want you here with me
Well I saw you in a restaurant
The other day
And instead of walking towards you
I ran away
And I'll keep on waiting for you
Till you'll come around
Come around and say
Don't want your picture
On my cell phone
I want you here with me
Don't need those memories
In my head now
I want you here with me
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Here with me
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Ooooh!
Here with me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7SxTyvOixJA
Sigur Rós - Leaning Towards Solace feat. Dauðalogn and Varúð
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KPBLTlLTFHA
Most did you knows
- Did you know most lipsticks contain fish scales
- Did you know the most commonly used letter in the alphabet is E
- Did you know the 3 most common languages in the world are Mandarin Chinese, Spanish and English
- Did you know Switzerland eats the most chocolate equating to 10 kilos per person per year
- Did you know the most common mental illnesses are anxiety and depression
- Did you know the most commonly forgotten item for travelers is their toothbrush
- Did you know your most sensitive finger is your index finger (closest to your thumb)
- Did you know Monopoly is the most played board game in the world
- Did you know Scotland has the most redheads
- Did you know India has the most post offices than any other country (over 100,000)
- Did you know the most fatal car accidents occur on Saturdays
- Did you know soccer is the most followed sport
- Did you know your most active muscles are in your eye
- Did you know after Hawaii, New York is the state surrounded by the most water
- Did you know the most sung song is happy birthday
- Did you know the most common injury in ten pin bowling is a sore thumb
- Did you know most of the Vitamin C found in fruits is in the skin
- Did you know the most common disease is tooth decay
- Did you know avocados have the most calories of any other fruit
- Did you know Jack is the most common name in nursery rhymes
- Did you know the most common time for a wake up call is 7am
- Did you know blue and white are the most common school colors
- Did you know the most eaten fruit in America is the banana
- Did you know the most common Spanish surname is Garcia
- Did you know the most popular snack food is potato chips
- Did you know the most popular toothbrush color is blue
- Did you know per person France consumes the most cheese
- Did you know the most valuable nutrients of a potato are its skin
- Did you know lettuce is the worlds most popular green vegitable
- Did you know most spiders have transparent blood
- Did you know coffee is the most popular beverage worldwide with over 400 billion cups consumed each year
- Did you know in American supermarkets peanut butter is one of the most frequently purchased items
- Did you know the most commonly used word in English conversation is 'I'
- Did you know the world's most expensive spice is saffron
- Did you know hydrogen is the most abundant element in the Universe (75%)
Trips
As I am sitting here my sister is messaging me on 'Touch" another type of BBM. She is cleaning her closet out and finding photographs.
We went on a cruise together just her and I and it really was great. It was good to have the one on one time and to be in the places we went to. We saw amazing places both beautiful and filled with so much life. I wish we could just get away, again. I would not come back.
We went on a cruise together just her and I and it really was great. It was good to have the one on one time and to be in the places we went to. We saw amazing places both beautiful and filled with so much life. I wish we could just get away, again. I would not come back.
Milky
Let It Snow!!!!
It does not seem like it is going to be Christmas next week. There is no snow outside. For me I do hope it will snow. I always liked the way it looks. I even do not mind the cold like others. I leave my window opened and it feels great. It also helps to have a better sleep.
Let it snow!
Milky
Let it snow!
Milky
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