Upsetting

Still no orders! I do not know what to do. I keep working at it but now I think I need to just give up. I want to leave the house but when I do I start to panic! This is where my life is now.

Not living around others has been both upsetting and fine. Upsetting because I miss everyone and fine because I do not have to pretend that I am okay. I hide away but I have agreed to go out this Saturday morning for a visit. I hope it goes well.

Milky