Could I save you, me?

sometimes i wish i could save us...


I know there will always be those kind of days where all you want to do is stay in bed, hide from the world, let the past crash over you like the waves drown the reefs and just sleep it - sleep all of the pain away. You just want to pull back and shut down from everyone and everything when you are emotionally hurting. The emotional pain is so bad that at times you wake up not able to breathe because you cannot catch up to it. 


Everyone around you will say that the best thing you can do on those days is get up and work through it because it could only make you stronger. The funny thing is that they are right but nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting or how much you are suffering. They do not know that you once loved someone so much and lost them in the worse way. So, as much as they say move on, it will be fine, they just do not know how right and how wrong they truly are. 


At some point we could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken, and we would not even know. We would not know the pain that they are suffering or how much they are hurting over someone we never met but the fact is it does not matter if we understand because the point is that they do hurt and they are suffering. Sometimes we cannot get in the way of that because they need to heal at there own rate, their own time and we need to respect what they are going through even if we do not agree.


Life is never what we want it to be, the person next to us has the life we want, or is it? The fact is we really do not know anyone. The life we think they have and we want may be far worse then the life we have, now. We make a life in our mind, it is perfect, beautiful and filled with so much happiness. We want that life to be real, we want to live it and just be happy. But we wake up from that dream and realize that our fate is our own, to screw up how ever we want and we may never be able to get from underneath our past or we may keep repeating our mistakes. But in the end we will hurt, we are afraid of loving, loving you, loving us and we cannot stop because love will always be in our lives and it is never perfect.


We have to let go and move on it is apart of life. We hate but we will do it.

Milky