To move some place you have to move on and you have to let go. You have to say good bye to the people you love and hate and do not want to forgive. Sometimes this is the hardest thing you will ever have to do.
Even through they were apart of you life and you may still have love for them, they are the ones making you ill or sad and confused. It is them who are apart of the problems in your life and you cannot heal because they are still hurting you. They will not listen to reason or except what they have done.
As much as you hope that something can be saved between you and them, the light is no where in sight. The odds of finding new ground between you and them seems impossible and you wish with all your heart that things were different but you wake up and realize that - that day may never come. As each passing day goes by it is suppose to get better, hurt less and one day you will be able to breathe again. The only thing is - it will never really go away. It may become easier but they will always be in your heart.
Out of no where you hear their voice, “Hi Love”….. it is haunting and very hurtful. It is at that point your heart breaks again even when you thought it is not possible too. You try to pick up the pieces but there are to many lost, so you let go. “Love me and let me go” HOW? Have you? Tell me how.
If our lives are like a poem that when it works it comes spilling out like it is meant to be. We cannot forget that poems are something we make. And even through we live in mostly randomness , once in awhile something good and deliberate happens and it is not just God, sometimes it is us that is responsible too. He proved that to me. I mean if there is fate we have to be able to conquer it, we really can be the masters of our lives against terrible odds and we can make things happen? Right?
Milky
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